Dear Becca,
It truly has been an interesting journey.
I am very thankful for your awareness and guidance!
To navigate this existence is very challenging.
And my emotional responses have definitely been a process!
Over the last few days, my emotions and thoughts have risen to attack the me and I'm ...

Hi Becca,


Is there a separate self “making my own decisions without outside influence”?

There is no separate self.

Does “ power to make decisions” hold up under Looking?

No

What makes things happen?

Things just happen! Without any influence.

What made this moment happen?

This ...

Aloha Becca,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

It has taken a while to see that there is no separate entity called self, me, or I and there never has been. It is quite simple and obvious. There are only thoughts and ...

Hi Becca,

Anything remaining unexplored here? Ready for some questions to reveal any remaining gaps in clear seeing?

We've explored all the stories. Ready for your questions.

Porky

Hi Becca,

What is the biggest difference from before starting this conversation?


There are so many differences where do I begin?

1. Noticing sensations much more.
2. Allowing my emotions to just be without an attachment.
3. Recognizing when I put labels on people and things.
4. Getting in ...

Hi Becca,

Has a self ever actually been found?

I don't know what is supposed to be there or not!
If you're not looking for something, how can it be found.

But in any moment, always now, has a self ever been directly seen?
No, not that I'm aware of.

If not, then this isn’t about “holding ...

Hi Becca,

Is there, anywhere, a you” that’s doing the work in progress?

There are times when the "You" is nowhere to be found.

Has a self ever been found?
(Not the idea of one, the story or the memory...)


I don't know what has been found. All that can be said is
there are times when no ...

Hi Becca,

I was never driving this train, Porky, no one was. :)

Maybe you weren't driving but you've been guiding the way.

So has the illusion of a separate self been seen through?

Without too much of a story, I would have to say, it's a work in progress!
The way I look at things is ...

Hi Becca,

So… what now? :)

I don't know. You tell me!

What is present?

The only things that are present are sensations and thoughts. That's it!

Thanks for all your help.
Porky

Hi Becca,

- Bring your attention to that heaviness in the chest.
Not the story around it. Just the raw sensation.
- Feel it fully—without naming it grief, pain, emotion, trauma, or energy.
- Ask the simplest, most radical question: Is there a self inside this sensation?

No, there is no self ...

Hi Becca,

It doesn't feel like it's a part of the "I" but yet it limits my activities and my way of existence.
Where is the me who is limited?

Right now, in experience the person who is limited is being watched by what I would call the witness.
It's probably another story but one in which I'm ...

Hi Becca,

The next time the pain becomes overwhelming, don’t go to the story or the meaning making. Go closer.

Let it open fully. Let the whole body feel it. And look in the middle of it:
Where is the one this is happening to?

When going closer it seems as if the pain and depression about the ...

Aloha Becca,

What I do notice is this ego using pain in my body to get my attention away from what we are doing and focused on discomfort instead
Before the thought “this is trying to distract me” appears,
is there a problem?

Yes, there is a problem. My senses are now occupied by pain. Whether I ...

When there’s spacing out, watching, speaking, hearing, sensing…
Without a name, without a label, what’s missing?

If there is something missing, it is not apparent to me!
What I do notice is this ego using pain in my body to get my attention away from
what we are doing and focused on discomfort ...

Hi Becca,

When there’s spacing out, watching, speaking, hearing, sensing…
Without a name, without a label, what’s missing?

If there is something missing, it is not apparent to me!
What I do notice is this ego using pain in my body to get my attention away from
what we are doing and focused on ...