Hi Stacy,

I have been feeling this is all futile lately. I see the absence of self but the what? There is no shift. I guess I just got fed up with it all for a while. Now that I started watching the video I got a little motivated for the inquiry again.
Sometimes I feel like just letting it all go ...

Hi Stacy,

James, can you say 100% that there is no separate "self" anywhere?
It feels like there is, as it always has, but I just can't find it when I try to locate it. Just the contracted feeling and ideas/thoughts that I used to think was "me".

Have you noticed any shift in perception ...

Hi Stacy,

And thank you for your relentless support.

Can you say more about this? How does it FEEL in Direct Experience?
Peaceful, alive, awake. Like there is nothing to worry about.


Then close your eyes and see if there is a line between you and out there, between you and life itself.

If ...

Hi Stacy,

What are you expecting?
I am not really expecting anything anymore i think. I am hoping for freedom from psychological suffering, ease and peace.
I have noticed lately that I don't really suffer like I used to. Not that everything goes smoothly and without pain. But there is not the ...

Hi Stacy,

I have been focused on work and other responsibilities lately. Will start posting daily again.
At the moment the whole thing seems futile. No matter how hard I look, I can not find anything but the contracted sensation and thoughts. Still there is a feeling of "me".

Where is this "I ...

You can't "move on." To where?
There's nowhere to go. I see that now. The thoughts keep trying though. I find this to be both liberating and frustrating at the same time. The thoughts have been trying to get somewhere else for an entire lifetime and I guess they are not likely going to stop doing ...

Hi Stacy,

And thank you for the videos. Saw them before but didn't hurt to see them again.

Do you feel a shift in perception?
I do feel a quite vague difference in how I perceive.
For quite some time before I found LU I have felt a presence of a backdrop of total peace and stillness underneath ...

Hi Stacy,

How does it FEEL to see this?

It feels as usual in a physical sense but there is also a detached perspective where I see the "I" is not solid nor real.
I feel lighter but the thoughts say this is not it because there is no drama or "fireworks".

Peace, James

Hi Stacy,

I keep looking but I feel a little stuck. Like it does not matter what I do really. You say I can not make it happen or force it and still I keep working the pointers, hoping they will trigger a shift in my identity. A shift I´ve been searching for for many many years without even knowing ...

How does it feel to see this?.

It still feels as if there is an "I" here somehow. But on closer inspection it cannot be found.
Seeing this feels... less dense.

Peace, James

Good evening Stacy,

Can you find a separate "self" anywhere?
I can find the contraction in the chest, thoughts claiming to be "me", a general but quite abstract feeling of being a me. But I can not find anything that I can say without doubt and with certainty that this is me, this is the I. So ...

Hi Stacy,

I have no idea what to do. And I feel strangely ok with that.
If thinking is a dead end street in the search for truth there is not much I can do, I guess.
Except just let everything be as it is.

James

Hi Stacy,

There is a lot going on in my life (as it is for most people I guess) and sometimes thoughts come that say I am not focused enough on the inquiry. At the same time I don't get caught up as much in the same thought-webs and emotional turmoil that I used to.
Last night me and my girlfriend ...

Hi Stacy,

What happens when you practice the pointer I gave you on Sinday?

Thoughts diminish and goes on in the background. Not constantly though. There are gaps. I feel still and peaceful when doing this exercise.

James

Hi Stacy,

There is a feeling here that thought is less important than it used to be. Thoughts go on as usual but they don't seem to drag me in with the same emotional charge. At least not all the time. I think I don't really believe them as much as I used to do. A "why even bother" kind of thing ...