Hi Alan,

I've been sitting with your questions but it's been a bit tumultuous.

A few days ago I was looking at that sense of "me" and something clicked into place. The haze of mind I'd been in that day instantaneously disappeared. Now it's as if the membrane of mind is very thin, but it's still ...

You say the sensation is CAUSING what the mind is calling frustration. Look again ......is that actually true?
Or is it more true to say there is a sensation that the mind associates with the label or a story about a concept it calls frustration?

Yes, this is more accurate. When I don't label it ...

Hi Alan,

As I read this, I realised how much I've been in mind and how in the describing of my experience to you, thoughts about this were not acknowledged as thought and would hijack the seeing pretty often.

I also have a habit of delaying the reply because there is often a thought that I need to ...

As you do this can you find any boundary between what we would call an inside and an outside?

I can't find a boundary between inside and outside as it is all happening in front of me, and when I look for that "me" there is a movement of attention onto more subtle sensations that cause frustration ...

Hi Alan

On my walk something shifted. It's very subtle, but I can't look "inside" anymore. Something that was there is now missing. There's a slight panic and frustration as the looking meets a wall.

As you start to watch thoughts and wait for the first thought to arise what happened?

A thought appeared, not about the cup but about myself. There was a sensation in my solar plexus that felt like "doubt", and I had the thought that I might not be doing it right.

Did you actually choose which ...

Hi Alan,

It's good to be here again. :)

What in particular do you notice about what is going on in this experience of SEEING?

I am noticing that the mind is present but has no impact on what is being seen, which requires no mind.

Can you describe what is seen in any way accurately so that ...

Would a baby see a series of words or just colour?

A baby would see just colour.

As you LOOK at the sentence above and without any reference to thought, what is actually SEEN?


It's hard to describe it without thought, but a line of black and red.

Are you not also aware of the oranges ...

Hi Alan.

I'm still with you.

Sorry for the delay, I should've mentioned something sooner. Some unexpected personal events happened in the past week but I am still very conscious of this and eager to continue when settled, which should be this weekend. I've been looking at my visual experience ...

Hi Alan :)

No need to rush. If you feel you need extra time please just let me know.
And let yourself be curious with all this without trying to figure anything out !!!!


Yes please on the extra time. It's been a bit of a tumultuous week.

Also some of these questions are really direct and I ...

Oh yes the old tension in the head phenomena

I was a little worried I was giving myself an aneurysm.

When it's talking turn your attention to it and simply wait. What happens?

The voice dissolves and there's a subtle tense sensation that sort've feels like anxiety but more in the chest area ...

Thought vanishes but do YOU vanish?


There is still an inner voice but it's full of half-thoughts, although it's quieter and sometimes it's very quiet if I'm more in my senses. There is still an "experiencer" present, although I can look at that too.

Can you find an entity separate from what is ...

Post several of your own observations of daily activities in a list *exactly* like the one above, please. Same word forms. Same order. EXACTLY.
Activity: Using my laptop
Seeing laptop screen, simply = colour
Smells of rainfall through an open window, simply = smell
Feel of fingers tapping keyboard ...

Now while it is easier said than done, just do your best to leave all your expectations aside
Thank you. I can do that.

And another thing to be aware of. While we yearn to find the truth within us, it is every bit as important to find that which veils the truth
Yes please. I've been meditating ...

Hi Alan,

I wanted to post earlier but I also wanted to spend a little more time with this.

Describe what you're feeling when you say there's a resistance. Use the most basic description of what is the most fundamental aspects of what is being experienced - as though you were feeling this for the ...