Honestly I thought and felt like I had it and lost it again....frustrated.

In other words. If I tell you you are wrong, that there is a separate self, would you have doubts?


Lol, well I wouldn't have any doubts because it simply is not there. This is something I seem to have created all by myself..I'm simply looking at the evidence and nothing I see seems to support ...

Thanks C.

Don't worry about it, we have an understanding here it seems, we speak when we can, I appreciate it.

So to answer, your question, it kind of comes and goes, I see it, I feel it...and then something else takes over and the separation kind of lifts. But when I focus on something, anything ...

Hi C,

I have performed your exercises. Here is what I have observed. I cannot take a picture of my thoughts, emptions, these are processes that occur within me and are invisible to the eye. Since these are invisible, they cannot be me, they are simply a process of life that aids the computation of ...

I really appreciate your patience C. Means quite a lot....also, your ability to unpack these concepts in an easy to understand manner is quite reassuring, there is hope still :)

This seeing is available every time I look, there is nothing special about it. You can look and see also, as easily as I ...

I must admit C, you made me feel a little silly right there. Truth is unchanging and I need not be in any particular condition to see something that has always been and is always there. I just need to look, which I feel I have been doing. I have looked and I have seen but why is it that even though ...

the mind has taken the memories, feelings and experiences experienced and carved out a 'self' from that. Essentially a 'personality'. I'm sensing once I empty my mind of this, the truth becomes ever so clearer.

I think that if I do not see it then I must be making it up...

there is no little me inside my head controlling everything, just thoughts passing through my mind. There is a body, extending into limbs, fingers, skin. The body is in constant contact with at least one thing around it at any given time, air, another surface, another body. It feels, it senses, its ...

I had a few personal issues that kept me significantly preoccupied. I am ready to keep looking, it is the single most important thing for me to do right now.

Hi C,

The prodigal child is back. Please tell me you are still there.

Kr.

Hi C,

I must say, this is the best laid out set of instructions and guidance i have come across so far. Thank you so much for caring enough to detail it in such a manner. I have followed your instructions and realized that I have been limiting my looking to memory as well as imagination. Holding on ...

Well honestly I still feel like there is me.. and the rest of the world. Me ends where my body ends....here is the tether. I guess the physical confines of the body and the exclusive nature of my thoughts. This creates the dichotomy and maintains the tether.

Or that you see there is no self but are trying to have a better no-self experience?

This, this is exactly what I would like. Have a better 'no self' experience. Beyond the logic, the concepts...just one untethered experience.

I think it was more of a body 'awareness' than a 'coming back into'. I needed to quickly clarify that point. Otherwise I'm quite aligned on every aspect you have pointed out C. It is the final look, the perception that I seem to keep missing, maybe I cannot turn off the constant thinking, the logic ...