That sounds nice. I am from snow, and though I can't really afford it here, I just can't make myself move back. I took my daughter camping a couple weeks ago, and though we got pretty wet and had racoons tear open my tent and steal my purse and some dog food while we were sleeping, it was still very ...

Go on* not in. The retreat.

So I think so,me blocks were removed. Being stressed out and snapping at everyone doesn't actually mean I'm being a good mother. I was horrified a bit ago at the thought of being...more of a neutral observer I guess, but mainly because of the huge sense of relief it gave me. My mind told me that it ...

It's actually not bad here. I have been in California for five years and I still can't get used to the people who wear winter coats when it's still seems warm here to me lol.

Oh lol well somewhere I wrote some long thing. I guess I've done that a few times, somehow not completely submitting whatever I wrote. Oh maybe I'm hitting preview and thinking I submitted it.
Anyway I mainly said yes, I can relate to that post, I'd just came across something within the same day ...

Oh no I may have just posted in the wrong place, I'm sorry can this be moved if so? I meant to post here, did I reply at that link instead, as I dont see my reply.
Thanks,
Amy

Haha well thank you, and thanks for your patience with me, I appreciate your time! And keeping me on track when I was going all over the place.

No need to be sure of anything. If there's something you're sure of, that's probably something worth questioning hahah.


Ok good, I'm ahead of the game then.


What do you mean by being able to handle things better?


I do not want to be so reactive to everything especially towards my ...

Thanks yes I would have sworn I knew better, but why else would I be upset about being upset? Mostly things have felt easier and without all of the extra weight my mind seemed to want to add to everything.

Except when I'm...I mean my body...is extra tired, which is fairly early and fairly often ...

Well, mostly good, much calmer and not feeling, for once, that I am needing to fix everything and fix myself or trying to figure out what I'm missing or doing wrong or whatever. Just calm and happy. Except yesterday I felt really horrible and I just sat there unable to make myself do much of ...

Just a concept.

Heh. Mostly I have no idea. But here's my own really dumb joke that's also my answer (which I know is dumb because I have to explain it first)

I usually listen to ebooks read with a decent AI voice. I was sure I kept hearing 'my' name used randomly which couldn't be right, and I finally realized ...

I don't know. I was reading something and It quit being just a concept. Before that, it was. That's just really not me, I don't need a test anymore, I kept thinking something dumb about that wasn't how it happens or something and I wanted someone to confirm it. But I don't need it to be confirmed ...

I got it! I see, there is nothing to see! I'm not my body, I'm not in my body. No me. I got it! But I feel like I need to be tested or something. Because I keep wanting to be sure I still know. Or, I never know how to word things. That I'm not just fooling myself. I don't think I am though. But I ...

Ok, there's that part, then there were a very very few times I know something was shifting, not based on any thought or expectation because it was something I'd never had any kind of experience. Time wasn't time, and things looked and felt different than they had. Temporarily. Then I start feeling ...