Good point! This took some time as there wasn't heavy thought loops happening. And when it happened, it was noticed later. When I finally noticed mediocre angry thought loop, it disintegrated allmost instantly to thoughts and emotions, and then was felt as sensation in the body. And poof it was gone ...

What makes them “special”?
Without the labeling are those moments actually different in what they are?
Or only different in content and interpretation?

It's hard to describe. It's like trying to describe difference of a dream and lucid dream. It's the same but with realization. It's wonder of ...

Are these 'glimpses' actually special?
Or is the mind labeling certain moments as “clear” “free" etc
…and other moments as “lost” or “taken over by thought”

They are special in a way that they feel different and are uncommon. Other moments are what they are. Lost would be a label thought.

When ...

Right now, when preference appears is there someone preferring?
Or is preference itself just appearing? :)

Preferring is like a thought or a feeling. It may or may not be acted upon. It appears.

A pull toward pleasant. A push away from unpleasant. Does that require a “you”?
Or is it just ...

Hmmm... Is anything enabling experience?
Meaning, is there experience and something behind it making it possible?? Can that be found?

No. The dreamer dreaming the dream, - and the character experiencing the dream, is a thought and a memory of the experience.

Ah, so it is not neutral? The word ...

Greetings from the shores of Red sea where I'm currently on holiday!

The word “awareness” already suggests something that is aware of something else. :)

Can you actually find awareness as a separate thing, or is there just seeing, hearing, sensing, thinking happening?
Not philosophically….

Look ...

Hi,

Drop the word awareness for a moment and Look again.
Is there awareness plus experience?
Or is there simply experience?

Or is there only awareness? It is possible to describe what is happening here as experience but calling it awareness flows naturally.

Who is the owner of the reaction? Is ...

Namaste,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

Answer: I cannot find it. I was going to write about the illusion in reactivity and immersion but that was the next guestion. Illusion of self was.

2) Explain in detail what the ...

Nothing at the moment Becca, but I have a feeling there might be something coming later. 🙏

Is there a seeking energy still present at all or has it settled into exploration?

What a wonderful guestion! First there was nothing, just quiet, but then there's wishing thoughts for wonderful living as awareness. So resistance to resistance like you put it! That quiet place that your guestion ...

- unless reactivity is considered an manifestation of an ego, a separate self?

No, this is seen as a thought construct.

Can memory create anything? Does it have this ability?

Ok, no, what I was trying to say was that experiencing in awareness perspective, or way of no resistance if you will, was remember fondly, there was wishing that it would be the the way now. So in other words what was was resisted.

Is it ...

That’s another layer of thought.
In the middle of a painful loop, are you actually in “awareness perspective”?

Or is that memory being used to resist what is happening?

That's true only in the way that memories are thoughts. It was lived experience that I previously shared. I had to wait about ...

Hi, lovely to hear from you also!

Apparently more words need to be used to describe the situation here more accurately. Even truth is that everything is happening in awareness already, it's not lived experience most of the time.

When thoughts and memories come, it's all that is experienced then ...

Namaste,

About a year has passed before I could give an answer to your guestion, apologies for that Becca even it couldn't have be otherwise.

The problem seems to be the perspective. Without awareness there isn't anything. Instead abiding in that, perspective is in the head looking at the world ...