Thank you for your support and patience. I am listening back to the meditations you sent, those are super helpful. I am working with the resistance that feels like “me”. If there are any other meditations you recommend, please send. I will review the exercises we have done again, and I will follow ...

Hi Stacy,

I haven’t been able to answer these questions confidently. I feel resistance in the body to it. I am going to answer them when I feel I can from a place of clarity.

Thank you,
Lauren

Hi Stacy,

How does it feel? (still staying in DE, not thoughts & labels)

It feels expansive and clear. It feels like living without a filter. And having discernment of the filter that is habitually there.

I hope you are well.

Gratefully,
Lauren

Hi Stacy,

I’m sorry for the delay. I’ve been away for weeks on retreat.

Bring up a thought about a character labeled "friend."

Then bring up a thought about a character labeled "stranger."

Compare these thoughts.

Is there a difference in these thoughts?

The thoughts are just labels

Is ...

I was too late so she gave me the link for the next meeting.


When you look at the word label ‘GREEN’, what is the actual experience?

The experience is still of the color red.


Is the red color "experienced" or is color green "experienced" as the label suggests?

Red is still red. The label is ...

Thank you! I just emailed her for the link

Yes, the shift is happening subtly over time for me.

I have the book Gateless Gatecrashers. I will go back to reading it more.

This feels exciting.

Thank you

Yes! I am sensing it more and more. The fear video helped. It told me I am choosing it.

LOOK is there any "self" in Direct Experience or just the tension telling you that you're lying?

It’s just the tension of the lie feeling. My whole body feels like the tension of a lie.

What is found?

A feeling of panic. But when I do this exercise the lie feeling doesn’t go away, whether I’m ...

What are you bouncing in & out of?

Being aware of this mind/body system occurring as Lauren - the ceaseless thoughts and pressure and strain and tightness. Being aware, like being in the space outside of it vs identifying as it - being in it.

If yes, where is the boundary?

The boundary feels ...

So, what, specifically, IS the Direct Experience?

The direct experience is pressure and tension and heat in space. I feel the cool sheets. There are thoughts and lots of pressure and discomfort, it’s in space, which feels unlimited and vast. Both are happening. I bounce in and out of this ...

I just re-listened to the second pointer “Beginning Thinking”, I got to a place where I could feel the direct experience of the tension and thinking of my mind and body but I was kind of outside of it. I had the DE of my whole body within space.

Do you notice how you didn't answer the question?

Yeah I was describing my understanding, not direct experience.

Listening to the first pointer and seeing everything as God, my direct experience was of the sensations of tension and heaviness inside and thoughts coming up about it. And in the ...

Yes, I understand. I recognize the words are only pointers to direct experience. “Me” is a pointer to sensations in the body. It is a label, but “me” does not exist. The sensations exist as direct experience, but there is nobody experiencing them, they are just happening. Everything is just ...

What do you mean by that?