Hi Elad,

I've been looking into my experience and I can't find an I, yet I still have a sense of agency, etc. I know one isn't supposed to have doubt after breaking the first fetter (because supposedly the first three all fall together), but doubt is still there as is a subtle self sense.

I know ...

Hi Elad,

I think I may have substituted the belief of a "self" with the belief of a "no-self".

This past week, I have lost the drive for this inquiry. I'm struggling a lot with doubt (which I struggle with a lot in general). There is also a fear that this "identity" is the most important thing in ...

It's just a thought! It's just a belief, an idea! It's not referring to anything! Hahaha! It's not "my" thoughts. It's just thoughts. They aren't "my" emotions. They are just emotions that are appearing 😂😂😂

How bizarre.

Is it really that simple? Like nothing has really changed. My thoughts are the ...

Hi Elad,

I'm not sure what the fear is trying to protect. I've sat with it for a while. A few things have come up, but no real answer. Some "answers" include: the body, the "I" (which is just a thought when examined. I look for what's behind the thought but there is nothing there), even "fear" as ...

Hi Elad,

I listened to the video three times in the way you described. One time I was moving and the other two times I was sitting. When I was moving, I noticed the body was moving on it's own when I wasn't paying attention to it. However, as soon as I started paying attention to the movements, I ...

Hi Elad,

Yes, I can do that.

JT

And when I say I "look" at my hand, I mean when I feel the sensations in my hand. I don't mean visual looking.

Hi Elad,

Your questions are difficult to answer.

I'm having a hard time discerning between my direct experience and any thoughts that come up. For example, when I "look for the looker" it "feels" like the looker is somewhere up in my head. Yet that is also seen. When I "look" at my hand, it ...

Hi Elad,

It's been a while since we talked. I hope you are doing well.

My life circumstances have changed dramatically, and I am now in a place where I have much more time to devote to fetter work.

I was wondering if we could start working together again. Please let me know.

Thank you,
JT

Hi Elad,

Thank you for your reply. I really appreciate it and I look forward to working together. Thank you for your help.

I've been looking for the self and I can't find it, but something still seems to be in the way. It hasn't felt like a big "aha" and I still have the "sense" that a self is ...

Thank you, Sandra. I've enjoyed working with you. Thank you for all your help.

Best,
JT

Hi Sandra,

I understand. Sometimes it takes me a few days to a week to find time to practice. Should I look for another guide?

Thank you,
JT

Hi Sandra,

I might need a few days with this one. I will respond as soon as I have something to report back.

Thank you,
JT

Hi Sandra,

I tried the exercise you suggested. I didn't find a self.

When I look with my eyes I see what is seen. When I look for a seer the only seer I find is the thought "I am seeing". When I listen, I hear sounds. When I look for a listener the only listener I find is the thought "I am ...

Hi Sandra,

Sorry for being picky but it seems to me that there is something here worth exploring.

When you say, "try to see what's going on", what do you mean?

Let's say I ask you to look to something. A phone, a cup, a wall.

Isn't seeing, seeing? Is really necessary to try to see something ...