Hi Matan,

All this sounds good! I am giving you lots of space, inquiry into the (non-) existence of the separate self should come from a place of "true inner calling" and feeling it is the right time/timing for it.

I am here whenever happens in this inquiry, that you want to share. Or if ...

Hey Elad, thanks.

I have an practice I've been doing in the last few weeks, every day sitting for 10-15 min (I don't even count) and giving attention to the emotions felt in the stomach. after a while it seems to change and come up sort of through the throat, it feels like dryness or some sensation ...

Hey Elad, thanks for following up.

The search/inquiry/process which have been going on for months has really taken on it's toll and I've stopped for a while. Really strong suffering.

Interestingly, I visited friends and we spoke about meditation and stuff. I then spoke about how everything just ...

Hey Elad, Shana Tova!

To be frank I don't think anything is seen. when I say Ani just more thoughts about "me" arise, in my voice, and it feels like I'm initiating them. If I'm honest this is what is seemingly happening, and it feels binding, there's a sensation of binding to the word, a sense of ...

Shalom Elad, took a break from posting,
I'm back

Word “I”

Let’s look at thought and the content of thought a little more,
Write the word "I" on a piece of paper. Look at the word, is that YOU?
Now say the word “I” aloud. Is that sound YOU?
Is the combination of any of these, the word, the sound ...

Hi Elad, sorry for the delay. Took the days to reflect on this.

Yesterday I had another glimpse. It's interesting. I was doing something very physical and paid close attention to the sensations. I also noticed the thoughts happening, as if it's an invisible layer infront of me, a veil. Took it very ...

Can you see you are assuming there most be a something (separate, identifiable) that makes a belief happen? Can you see this is just an assumption? You don't directly SEE that there is something, rather then :it just happens as a mystery beyond mind understanding and thoughts/language cut it into ...

The EXPERIENCE, the BELIEF is certainly there. A real experience, a real belief. But can that experience/belief be found as anything else then just a belief, an experience? Does an experience decide and act?
That's interesting. It seems that experience just occurs - it rises up as a thought, and ...

I don't know if water is an entity at all, but that's what language suggest. But in the case of water, it doesn't get to have a say, it just what it is. The stream is water, a stream is just what we use to describe water in movement.

1 +2. It seems decisions are being taken as part of ...

Mitztaer al ha delay Elad.

Wanted to really sit down and do it and write a detailed response - I'm taking this very seriously, it's pretty much the focus of my life the last year.

Where are they coming from and going to? It sort of feels around my head? In front of me? Everywhere? hard to pinpoint ...

1. It feels as if I can control thoughts, not the next unintentional thought, but if sometimes comes up I can think about it- question or whatever. Also there's this thing behind the eyes which I always look from which feels like me, whatever is writing this.

2. Before looking for a guide here, I ...

Yes, that makes total sense. One is based on thought, memory, and the other is physical, direct evidence using sight, and of course the latter is much more concrete.

I tried a few more times, after about 3-4 times of feeling into it I felt chills around my torso. No thought that I noticed.

My name is Matan, and I was born and currently living in Israel :)

At first nothing happened, as I repeated I noticed a very subtle contraction in the chest area. A few more times and I noticed a thought: "What is a separate self?" as if there's is a grasping to understand it.

Hey Elad, toda raba al hahizdamnut

Read everything, thanks

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
I've been into this for a couple years. I've had a few glimpses, on one occasion I could "see" the separate self, the conditioning, rising on it's own. but it's as if the binding was very strong ...