Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Alysson

Dear Luchana,

I just wanted to say that I have been struggling with anxiety episodes and, therefore, slowed down my inquiry. I am seeking professional help and will return to this when I feel a bit stronger. Hopefully, it won't take long.

I thank you again, and very sincerely, for your company in ...

Thank you, Luchana.

I did the exercise a few times. Most of the marks (if not all) went to the self-side. Some of the things I observed:

- I imagined most of the thoughts would go to the self side, but it was even more than I expected. I see clearly that most of the thought mechanisms refer back ...

Dear Luchana,

It's been a while since I wrote, but I have not stopped looking for a single day. In some sense, suffering is a great reminder for inquiry. I have been feeling this suffering pushing me: this sense of inadequacy, this sense that I 'threw my life away', this constant reminder that ...

Dear Luchana,

That's a lot to look at. Thank you! I've been trying to explore my experience. It's not always easy (on the contrary), and here is what I see so far.

Listen to the sensation - what would it say if it has a voice?

It is painful in the beginning. Then, looking closer, it's more like ...

Hi Luchana!

How does it feel to see this?

It's ambiguous. I've been having intrusive thoughts. They mostly take the form of judging (others and myself) and can be very painful.

On the one hand, I feel relieved when I realise I am not responsible for them. I try to focus on this when they arise ...

let's look together Whether you can Predict your next thought? Think only positive thoughts? Not thinking any negative thoughts?

I can't predict the next thought. If I quiet my mind to the point of noticing the arrival of a thought, it's very clear to me that I had no agency in that.

I can't ...

As for the thought space, I can see that the unicorn does not exist, but I don't know what this thought space is made of. As for the thinking voice consists of things I seem to control (when I evoke the unicorn, for example) and things that appear by themselves without my 'permission'.

The glass ...

Yes!! I am.

I am trying to explore the exercises as much as I can before answering so I can give answers based on my heart and experience.

I've been playing, especially with the thinking voice. The feeling oscillates between the idea that there is one person (I am the one controlling the voice ...

Before we continue let me clarify how this dialog is happening so to speak.

Understood. Thank you!!

When you ask those questions do you intensively look for the answers? Or you think about the answers?

I try to 'wait with openness'. I think I am becoming more aware and avoiding going into ...

Let's look how do you know that this sensation/feeling is a self?

Bring it closely - does the raw sensation itself knows anything?

What is bringing the information that this sensation is a self?

Right. I think I see where you are pointing to, and it kind of led me to change my question from ...

And sorry, I forgot to say, you can call me Alysson, please.

Dear Luchana,

Thank you so much for your kind words and availability. It means a lot to me.

I understand what you mean regarding psychedelics and the importance of focusing on the direct experience.

When I investigate for the self, I tend to note it around the chest area, just below the throat ...

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
I have a conceptual understanding that the self is an illusion and is just a story that keeps being told and retold by thoughts.

What are you looking for at LU?
I am a 47 year-old man who has ...