I think that I am making this unnecessarily difficult for myself. Meaning that the me is being taken as a real separate thing here and I'm trying to see that it's not. This doesn't work. For the briefest moment, a minute ago, there was a relaxing back into myself and taking in what was there and ...

What is the difference between a "me" and a "person"? I could see that saying 'the person' was thinking and telling a story but when I say 'me' it's different. 'The person' doesn't seem personal. It's just words. I understand that saying 'me' is the same but understanding is not it. It's not seeing ...

Where is this person that you talk about?

What experience do you have of "a person" in your direct experience?

It's a thought story.
The 'me' is still being believed but the person isn't. Odd that.

There can't be a before really.

Interesting, is this "aware thing" an entity called Marian? I don't know if there is an 'aware thing'. But there is awareness of things. The awareness is there before things are named, including Marian.
Is this "aware thing" a separate entity call a person?
No. 'I am seeing' for instance, is a ...

What are you point to? A mental conclusion. I don't know if that makes sense to you. It's like something that was decided in the far past and has solidified as being real. It's not in direct experience but lingers in the background ready to be called upon.
What is present in your Direct ...

There is no evidence to support it in direct looking and yet it still seems to be there.

Is the 'me' identity a hypnosis?

Do the same exploration but this time instead of using the word apple, use the word: Lupin. I haven't been able to come up with an answer 'yet'. There's a yet because there still seems to be one. So I'll carry on trying to find it until I either give up or it's recognised that there isn't one to ...

Do the same exploration but this time instead of using the word apple, use the word: Lupin.

Quick answer - Thats a lot more difficult. Bye the way - let me introduce myself Lupin = Marian. To be contd......

However, is an apple actually known?
I only know what the senses register. The colours, weight, taaste etc. I know that the word apple is a label. I don't know what is an apple is other than those. I understand what is meant by direct experience and I see that thought adds individual labels to ...

I read a bit General Semantics - the map is not the territory - many years ago. The apple brings that to mind. Amazing how quickly thought jumps in when, I was only handling a ball of wool and seeing that it was not the name. :)

That U should have been I.

From the limited and localize perspective A LOT of things need to be fix. Which is normal and fine. I haven't read the remainder of your reply yet but I wanted to explain that what seems/seemed needing to be fixed wasn't something in the world. Yes, I understand that it's natural to want to fix ...

There is no entitiy inside this experience, controlling the show

I don't believe that I am controling the show because I can only see what's happening in the moment it's already
happening and not before.