Hi Stacy,
OK, understood. I'm happy to say I'm done then. No worries!

Best, Em.

Hi Stacy,

It's hard for me to be objective or have perspective on where this is. Perhaps it's a case of seeing how it unfolds and my taking the advice from the videos and re-reading Ilona's books.

Just further on the hand exercise, when moving the hand I tried to check if there was any connection ...

Hi Stacy,

So the following occurred:

How is the movement controlled?

Does a thought control it?

Can a ‘controller’ of any description be located?

Seems to be by instinct having read the instructions for the exercise. There's no controller moving the hand. No specific thought is identified at ...

Hi Stacy

Thank you, watched the videos.

Noted that this is normal and I will take the advice and release the expectation that was lurking 'that I should be in control of the process or managing it somehow'.

Much appreciation.

Em.

Hi Stacy,

Thanks for these, I'm back from travelling now, it was difficult to navigate the mind habits while away. The nice calm separation that was felt diminished after a few days, being constantly bombarded by habitual thoughts and daily planning choices with travelling companion.

I think the ...

Hi Stacy,

Thanks for your continued help, finally had some time to sit and look at this and had the following results :

Can it be known how tall the body is? Does the body have a weight or volume? In the actual experience does the body have a shape or a form?

No, none of there things cancelled ...

Thanks Stacy, will review and reply when I can.

Best Em.

Hi Stacy,

Sorry for the delay, I'm on a road trip and in the last few days have felt very pulled back into the self habits even though I am certain there is no self. I just found out about 'fetters' which are helping to identify what attachments feel like I'm being pulled back and identifying with ...

Hi Stacy,

Yes I have seen them. I'm abroad travelling. It's hard to have time to write. I will reply when it is possible.

Best, Em.

Whoops, missed a couple-

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

Not sure. It was Thursday evening into Friday morning. I think it was the cumulative effect of the exercises and then my subconscious gave me a push in a dream at 2.30am. That was bizarre but I have a history ...

Hi Stacy,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

There is no separate self, what was assumed to be there before cannot be found now, just a gap. It never was there. The story that was all around now feels like a distant bit ...

Hi Stacy,

Yes, please send the questions.

Em.

Thank you Stacy,

Been reading gatecrashers today and watched the videos. There's been a shift for sure, but after a few hours I was getting snagged back into the narration of thoughts and into the head. I'll continue following the advice and see if this will fall away a bit.

Best, Em.

Stacy,

Can you say 100% there's no separate "self? "

In direct looking from the heart area I cannot find a self anywhere. It's a blank space. It feels like having a foot on either side. Something about the writing process makes me feel a self is 'thinking about what to write' this is grabbed and ...

Stacy,

How does it FEEL to see there is no separate "self" there?


Just sat and felt into it and got back to that place where thoughts went quiet and vision was like HD. Pressure on the left of brain and a deep buzz in the left ear.

I'll keep doing that later tonight and in the morning.

It ...