J.P.

Just wanted to let you know that I am still on it, I just got really distracted. I'll have to create more space for me to investigate this.

Siggi

J.P.,

Is the Siggi that you are so familiar with the real you?

I don't even know if there is such a thing as a real you. Writing this triggers some resistance in the body.

All the seeking and dissatisfaction is being driven by that feeling that there must be something else.

Or maybe that ...

Hey J.P.

Don't know what to write to you right now, but I want to stick to the rule of writing once per day, which I missed yesterday.
Right now there is the notion of wanting to get to the next step but no clear idea where to go from here, there is a bit of a restlessness going on like I gotta do ...

J.P.

Can you give me some context, how did you come to this statement?
I dont really know what exactly I just did, I've just been reading Jed McKenna and got inspired to continously write down statements and questions inquiring into whatever it is thats going on right now within the notion of ...

J.P.

You are not really talking to Siggi and this is not really happening. There is nothing happening outside of thought.
Doesn't feel like anything really changed, but is it what I think it is, just this?
Really not sure right now.

J.P.,

I think I have a better feel now for the gap. Whenever I focus on thought appearing and dissolving, what tends to happen is that there is a natural "returning" to the present moment, usually indicated by a shift from a blurry eyesight to being clear and aware of whats in front of me. When my ...

Thank you J.P.

I will try this and report back to you soon.

Siggi

I've just deliberately sat down for 40 min to go deeper into this investigation. I noticed the agitating nature of the mind and didn't resist it, instead I encouraged it even more so to give me every "Negative" thought it has while I was just being with the emotion that came up. This felt relieving ...

J.P.,
Interesting, that's kinda nice to hear.

As you sit reading this I want you to observe the stream of thoughts and feelings that arise. Are those thoughts and feelings "You"?
My first impulse is to say "no". These thoughts and feelings are not "me". They rather feel like the are "about me" or ...

Hello J.P,

I didn't expect such a quick response so I am happy to hear from you. Thank you for this opportunity to get this thing done.

We can use "my real" short name: Siggi.

Tell me some more about the "barrier of fear"

I'll try to describe it as good as possible with some extra detail from ...

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this? I'd say it's mostly deconstructing false beliefs about this reality with a "me" in it, to reveal only what is true in the end = The realization that there is no self.
So far I've read and watched a ...