I listened to track 4. Perceiving receiving. Sigh. The answer to my big question never arrived. Yet I noticed the receiving end from time to time and it caused some cool sensations in the body.

I listened to Track 3. Beginning thinking. I noticed a thought and tracked back to the beginning, one step more and I had two feelings: One : well, before it was another thought? What do you mean where thoughts come from? Two: a very short pause, seemed black and stepping into it was relaxing. I can ...

If you get tired of it, you can listen to these and practice these additional pointers. Be sure to listen to the Introduction first.

https://www.dropbox.com/sh/ksba3zhi9uuz ... hsk1a?dl=0

I listened to the introduction and then track 2. Very nice and fun. Segment 1: I noticed the sensations and ...

What is happening with the Dropbox recordings?

I have Been busy. Will keep you posted.

By the way, I have had difficulty reaching the website and the forum recently. The links to this forum took forever. And sometimes I could not see my latest responses. It only showed like 2 pages instead of three. Just letting you or your web administrator know.

Report and write what is true about this DE, please.

I tried twice. Not easy to get into that mode of seeing. But it felt everything was in touch with me, without any veils. Also everything came to me together, not separately.

Do words deceive me?

I look at this curtain in front of me.....It is actually cloth just hung in front of a window....

I look at the desk in front of me.....It is really just wood in a certain shape....maybe even just trees

And then the books.....paper is again just wood ...so again really ...

Please LOOK for any place where your butt ends & the chair begins.

Is there any clear dividing line between them? Or only the Sensation with no clear division?

There is only sensation. No clear division.

But different when I look at the pencil on the table. I take it off the table. I can see ...

Hang on.

Here is a pencil in front of me. I totally get that I don't see the labels in reality. and words and labels are made up.

But this "pencil" is not glued to the table. I can pick it up. I can sharpen it. I can even break it and yet the curtains and the table and everything around it is ...

Before we continue, Just to make sure that we are on the same page:

With regards to banana example,

You are not suggesting that there is nothing in front of me, right? I see something with a certain shape, color, form and smell.

Right?

I had done the fear tube earlier. But the fear that showed up was not relevant to this work. Still awesome video in welcoming fear.

I watched the matrix clip too. The spoon. Yes. Just like my experience with banana.

So I used a banana in front of me.


What about the content of thoughts, what they describe?

My thoughts coming up after a while of looking at the banana : "It is yellow. It is delicious. Coming from a tree. Arrived from the Caribbeans, probably."


Is there really an ‘apple’ here, or only ...

Hi.
I am back. I did not do the fear video. But today there is no fear present and I felt ready to resume. Voila!

Actual/Direct Experience - Apple

I put an apple in front of me and looked at it. But honestly no thought presented itself. Not even the word apple.

I read through your queries but ...

Hi

I am processing some the exercises I did earlier. And also some fears have come up regarding this process: that if I see there is no self, I'd go crazy, I'd lose control of my life, that I am only a leaf in the wind, etc. So I will get back to you once I am ready to resume the work.

Cheers ...

LIES

What is found?

My memories were not sharp enough. I just invented lies and checked my body.

I . I eat babies for lunch (Gut twist)

II. This keyboard in front of me is BLACK. (Slight intestine twist)

III. I am a woman. (Gut Twist)

IV. I am dead. (Slight twist and turn in the lower gut ...