Great, Erin,

Lost is a good place to start actually. You are reaching for how to answer these questions, so let’s talk first about how to look.

If I ask you what color socks you are wearing right now you have two ways to come up with an answer:
• You can have a think about it, you can think back ...

Hello Grant,

The writing is secondary to the looking, and there has been a lot of looking evident here, so whatever is in flow schedule-wise to continue to explore in this way is good.


The nothing is happening part is realisation that this, whatever it is, is what is happening. Nothing ...

The body likely doesn’t speak in words, how does the body express?

Much love,
you’re welcome to return if there is a shifting impulse.

Becca

Very good.

Keep letting the thoughts float by (or turn the big dial down on their volume or translate them to blah blah blah) and dive down into the sensation directly. No meaning needs to be made of the sensation. But it has wisdom.

Shaking is fine, jittering is fine, it is a discharge of energy ...

Can you trust the body?

Or asked another way, can thoughts take a back seat so this energy (which is direct experience) can lead?

What would hip like to say?
What wisdom is in and around the heart?

Ask left leg.
Left leg knows...

I'm being serious.

Look there.

Hi Nils,

Very good. Now come back here:

1. Hold a hand in front of you; palm turned down.
2. Now turn the palm up. And down...and up and so on.
Watch like a hawk.

Don't go to thoughts, examine your direct experience. Do this as many times as you like, and each time inquire:
How is the movement ...

I am following you but am not in love with the screen analogy because though I know you are not talking about an “I” who owns experience the structure of it makes it seem like that which is aware of the screen is separate and distinct from the screen itself. In that way it is a bit messy. But I am ...

What you’re describing is actually very consistent. Notice the pattern:
1. Fear/sadness arises.
2. The system gets grabbed, or activated.
3. Inquiry happens.
4. No self is found.
5. Brief relief/calm.
6. Grabbing resumes.
7. The thought occurs: “This isn’t working. I’ll never stabilize this.”

And ...

Hello Erin,

Yes, it is best to set down as much as possible the expectations for what the experience of this gatecrashing will look like. It could be a large event or series of smaller insights, the important thing is the shift in perspective. 100 people will experience and describe awakening in ...

These days it is hard to tell if I'm actually the one turning it on and off. I really don't know the answer to that! It's a great question that I've thought about

Great! Keep looking here. And at the other mechanisms that presume a do-er in everyday ordinary life. Choice, control, etc.

When ...

Was thinking to reply but will give you some more time with the inquiries you are looking at right now…

:)

Beautiful.

Well Ilya, I and a few other guides read through your responses to all these questions and we are collectively satisfied… it appears the Gateless Gate has been crossed… but as you know there is no Gate, no one to cross it, and no end to the unfolding.

You may have already or will soon ...

By ‘obvious’ do you mean that the realization was an experience rather than a thought? Like a knowing without a knower?

Is staying in this state something that can be controlled? Is there the ability to go in and out ‘at will’?