Dear Magdalena,

Thank you for your guidance.

See you here

With Love

Jade

Dear Magdalena,


1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

There is ...

Yes, please.

With Love

Jade

Ps. There is nothing final. What a beautiful statement.

Hello dear Magdalena,

LOL! The return has been stamped, accepted by the postoffice and is now languishing somewhere in a big post bag, being lugged around - moved here and there.

It is on its way. Some stretches are blissful, some (just like the video said) a bit more sticky.

There is no need ...

Dear Magdalena,

Would you say that the illusion of an inherent separate self has been seen through?

I am not sure how to see the answer to this one either. There is the thought/feeling that comes up: more time is needed - why and for what I do not know.

Or is something still missing?
Is there ...

Dear Magdalena,

How is this seeing affecting Jade's daily life?
Jade's relationships with people?
Jade's mind chatter?
Jade's view of her past and her future?

How do I look for that? All I can come up with is imagine/remember a past set it next to an idealisation of the present to compare what ...

Dear Magdalena,

When you use the label “self-compassion”, how does it really feel, i.e. what bodily sensations is it applied to?

It is a full stop for the mind. It is not applied to bodily sensation, but to thought trains running amok. There is nothing the mind can do when compassion is needed ...

Ps. And seeing that
there is no choice, there is nothing to do - to let go/drop/let Life take care of it - Life always does. There is no chooser to make a choice and there is no choice as everything is as it is - nothing to choose from, no options to compare.

is restful and calm.

With Love

Jade

Dear Magdalena,

Who needs (self-)compassion once it is seen that everything, literally everything, is as it is – including resistance, no resistance, being ok with resistance, not being ok with resistance, judging or not judging, pushing or not pushing etc. etc.

To me (self)compassion is a word ...

Dear Magdalena,

And once again you have helped me see that what I thought was self-compassion (being ok with resistance, not judging it, but pushing through when possible) was not quite compassionate. Thank you


Why not simply be curious and look into things to see what’s in there to be seen?
I ...

Dear Magdalena,

When I look I am calm and centred.

What is interesting is the instant gut tightening-feeling of tension when reading your instructions guiding the seeing, when looking is imagined/planned/projected as a future task.

Before the agency exercise it was easy to look right there and ...

Dear Magdalena,

Entertaining, eh? The poor little “me” putting up its heroic defences against some mysterious “them”?
Very cloak and dagger indeed. My very own big brother/spy adventure haha.

Time for a Nature Exercise now that the weekend is coming :-)
There is no inside of life and outside ...

Dear Magdalena,

try and take a peek behind the resistance

Oh that was loud and clear. When reading the inquiry prompts the thought came: "They took my agency, they are not getting my body." I just took that to be the ego revolting a little, I let it be, noted the resistance and attempt to ...

Dear Magdalena,

This investigation was accompanied by resistance and looking for distractions.

Is it a head, or is it just a sensation labelled ‘pressure’ and a story ABOUT a head?

There are just sensations

Is a head actually found, or are there just sensations again?

Just sensations ...

Good morning Magdalena!

I am ready to look.

With Love

Jade