Hey Denis!

Here comes what used to be called the final questions, but has later been renamed to the checkpoint questions, as there is no finality to this.


Take your time with these. There is no hurry. The invitation is to respond to each question from your direct experience and stay away from ...

Hi Elad,

I have asked Marius to take over guiding me. He has agreed. I assume there is a handover procedure that will now happen.

Thanks again for your time.
Denis

Hi Elad,

I’m disappointed to hear you’re not up for guiding me anymore. Particularly after we just spend the last few posts agreeing the approach going forward.

Saying “I just don’t want it” is not true and a projection.

I think there is a communications issue and yes maybe we are not suited ...

Question
In what sense is the self/I even worth questioning? What kind of belief in self feels worth questioning to you?

Answer

I don't feel like questioning the I sense. That's my feeling. I'm sick of it. If I think about what makes it work questioning, its suffering, negative thoughts, blocked ...

....Under this feeling is also shame and anger.

Hi Elad,
Question
OKAY to 1-3? Moving forward are you willing to commit to such dedication, respect and precision for the questions ?

Answer
Yes, I will commit to points 1,2,3.

Question
Weather you have connected to such a spirit here so far or not, are you up for doing it from here?

Answer ...

How is it with the belief that you are/have a self? Tell me all there is to say about that.

Hi Elad, I can’t make sense of the question. The first 5 words not make sense to me. “How is it with the belief”. Can you re phrase.

Thanks
Denis

Let’s keep going so.

Thanks
Denis

Yes, I would like to return to this guiding. But can we do it on what’s app. This forum is slow and cumbersome.

Denis

Hi Elad. Just attending Vince’s meetings and working on reactivity right now. Nothing significant to report, It feels like anyway. I’ll keep doing this for now to see what changes.

Thanks
Denis

Can you give me some practical tasks to see I have to control.

Thanks
Denis

It feels like I’m sick of searching. Desiring something else. I want to just rest in being.

I’m 2days into work and have a pain/tightness in my upper back (behind my heart) it has contracted since I started. The feeling is: I’m not safe, I’m sad, I’m lost. It feels like somethings contracted, while ...

I did a meditation yesterday from Angelo, looking directly at the makeup/edges of a thought. They fell away and I was left with sensation in the face. Muscles twitching and a contraction. I feel like I’m in my face/head. It relates to the contractions and muscle spasms. Not sure how to proceed. It ...

I was driving yesterday. I felt I was going to have a panic attack, but the thoughts were not in the foreground. I just felt a disorientating shift and coolness in the torso. Thoughts were not allowed to take over and scare me. Felt simple but significant.

Thanks for your support last night Elad.

Denis