Some of this questioning seems outside of DE, but I will go along with it and not be too rigid.

In step 1 when thinking about their respective qualities, did you ‘choose’ the qualities? Or did they kind of appear by themselves? If some preferences manifested, did you ‘choose’ these preferences ...

It seems like in my responses you have pointed out/inquired if I could "see that this is all thought content". Yet there are more questions that can only be answered with further concepts, beliefs, thought content. Anything we type is thought content. The best I can do is to minimize thought content ...

What is self-evident? Evident to what or whom? Awareness?

Awareness/"IAM sense" is self evident. It is evident to itself.

Can awareness be found in DE? You've already answered that it cannot be seen (as an object).
No

Can awareness be found to exist separately from DE?
No

Can awareness be ...

How can you define something that cannot be found in direct looking? You have yet to find actual proof of an 'I'!

Good questions, let me try and prove then. Proof of an "I" - it's awareness. It's always present and self-evident. Cannot be seen (as an object) in DE, but perhaps irrelevant - it's ...

Yes, that's it exactly, but keep at it, it is a lovely exercise and the experience can deepen.

Okay yes, I understand the exercise now. Initially I was mistaking the meaning of the word flummoxed for something else I think. But yes it is like a "do nothing" type of open eye meditative experience ...

Lets look at the word 'real'. How do we know what is 'real' from an absolute perspective? Things have to be named and described and then they 'seem' to become real. In an exercises using direct experience of the visual field, we can allow for different degrees of attention going to thought overlay ...

Hi Rowena,

Thanks so much for this. It's exciting to be in touch with you again. There has been a lot of things happening here since we stopped our previous looking. Let me try to update my summary of how things felt when we stopped and what has evolved since then.

1) At the end of our ...

Hi Tyler,

Thanks so much for getting back. It seems like my past guide has got the thread up and running again to continue on. So better I go there and free you up to work with someone else. Take care, blessings, C

Hi everyone,

I did this work a number of months back and Rowena confirmed me but in light of some recent explorations, there is a feeling that a bit of self was still hiding in the corners. I wondered if any guide wished to take me on for a Round 2 exploration in search of a more doubtless shift ...

Hello Rowena,

Thank you so much for all your guidance, clarity and persistence in this journey with me. I am so happy to have had you as my guide. I would love to connect sometime on a call/video call just to have a few minutes of face to face time. Much, much gratitude and blessings.

All the ...

Can you say more about how seeing has affected and is affecting your relationships?

Can you say more about how it effects thoughts and feeling about you, when they are there?

Can you say more about how seeing affects your relationship with life?

Well, this was already happening before but I ...

Oops sorry about that.

7) What makes things happen? How does it work?
I don't know.

8) Anything to add
If I am not a pile of thoughts, there is a thought that wonders what I am or if it is even worth re-developing a concept of "I" of which to define somehow (BY THOUGHTS AGAIN because how ...

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?

No. No. Only thoughts about an I, me and self if that may count as a shape or form.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your ...

Hi Rowena,

I hope you've been well there.

I continued on with some sense gates experiments, looking for a hearer and see'er in which none could be located. Sometimes I wonder if the gateless gate has already been crossed or not. Doubt! Thought! By no one. Hmmm.. Is there any question I can ask to ...

Beautiful, a big YES to that Colin,

How does it feel to see this?

It seemed amazing at the time but is less so now. I will keep experimenting with the sense fields. Thank you Rowena, hope you had a wonderful weekend.