Yeah, the “sense of self” doesn’t really make sense right now. There isn’t the same sense of urgency for things to be different or better. Something feels different. I’m not insinuating there has been a shift necessarily, because I don’t know what that is or what that would look like. The thoughts ...

Is looking for a ‘me’, possibly reifying the sense of a me??

As your attention focuses on what is going on in the mind, do you feel a sense of self or me?
This is interesting. When there are active thoughts, there doesn’t seem to be a sense of ‘me’. The sense of ‘me’ seems to only pop up when I am looking for it or contextually insinuating that it is there ...

What is it about continuous thought that makes it feel like a 'me'?
Gosh, this is a really good question. Something that I have never examined before. I’ve been feeling into this all day today. I’m still not sure, but maybe it feels that way because the attention seems to be focused on what is ...

And don't worry, I am here to help you stay focused on the self-illusion. 🎯
I feel so much gratitude for you and your tireless redirecting :)

Is there a feeling that you are aware of not finding a 'me'?
Staying in direct experience (not in thought), there is awareness of not finding a ‘me’. The ...

Is there a 'me' that cares what others think right now?

Right now, there is a cramping in lower belly. The legs are shifting. Fingers are typing. Eyes seeing a phone.
There is not a ‘me’ that cares what’s others think right now.

Where is it? :)

I am not aware of it in my experience right now.

Wouldn’t it be wild to realize that this is all just a thought.
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There is a strong sense that resistance is just a thought.
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A thought saying “no” or “I don’t like this”.
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There aren’t any sensations that claim labels or need labels.
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Resistance doesn’t actually exist. Just like ...

Wouldn’t it be wild to realize that this is all just a thought.

There is a strong sense that resistance is just a thought. A thought saying “no” or “I don’t like this”. There aren’t any sensations that claim labels or need labels.

Resistance doesn’t actually exist. Just like looking doesn’t ...

That's good. When there's a thought with massive resistance, go into the sensations and feel them fully until they are done.
I did feel into the resistance and let the story play out. There were lots of stories about what would happen if I did “allow” myself to feel hopeless (though there was no ...

Could you please give me some guidance on how to best look into hopelessness? When I ask what would happen if I lost all hope, the mind first creates massive resistance and tells me hopelessness is basically death. As if hope gives life purpose. Then the mind continues to offer up hopeful anectodes ...

Can you explore this hopelessness a bit more?

What is it that will happen if there is complete hopelessness?
I love that you caught onto that. Once I posted this morning, I noticed that there is a strong urge to avoid this feeling of hoplessness. A resistance to even acknowledge that there is a ...

I asked multiple times yesterday Is there a self that doesn’t want to do this anymore?

Then sat and looked.

There were different sensations in the torso. A tenseness in the belly. The mind labels it as resistance or maybe fear. It is known that these are just labels. A tightness in the throat ...

Ok. Thank you for the encouragement!
I will do the inquiry you suggested.

I don’t know if I can do this anymore. I feel like this has all been in my head. The mid is so strong and I don’t know what is real and what is imagined. I truly appreciate the incredible amount of time and attention you have given to me over the last 9-10 months. I just don’t know how to do this ...

Ok, I will keep looking. I feel so much frustration and confusion. I don’t even know what I’m doing or what I am looking for. I don’t want to do this anymore, but the looking will continue. Hoping for grace and freedom