Is this a self, or a mental image?
It is a mental image. I don't know where it comes from. Is it a belief? The self? I will have to sit with it.

I am still wacked-out by it all, I don't articulate things well, they are just so hard to say anything about. I feel love for everything, and yet ...

When this sense of self shows up, is it you?
It is the me that used to care, but I don't anymore. My husband seems to be the only one who can cause an awareness of.... pain? hurt? off in the distance. Like another life lived? I can see where it would have caused a reaction in me before, and I see ...

Another way to ask this is: Can you predict what thoughts come next?

No.

And do you control making the choice you're drawn to, or does it simply happen?

Oh, I see what you're asking, I think. As to the rain example: I saw the rain and immediately wanted to walk in it, there was no thought ...

Hi Henry,
I apologize for not getting back to you. Truth be told we all got sick, and plans changed. We are better now! Thanks for the reminder.

Do you have a body?
I look at a glass and I feel myself in the glass, I look outside, I am the trees. I look down, whose leg is that? I don't know the ...

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No. There never was one.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now ...

Love to!

i feel relief in so many ways! Being part of whatever this is, is a depth of wonder I did not know existed! Doors of clarity are opening, opening, opening!

What I can say about the self, is that when it does show up, it doesn't have a grip. I cannot say it doesn't try, it is felt. But something ...

Do you see that this is more thought?
Yes! I have been able to sort-of look at the thoughts over the last few days, and actually hear them without engaging. They are seeming to be a part of me, and yet they don't mean anything. Your pointers were so spot on, and also things are still morphing all ...

Yeah, there is sometimes a sense of a 'me', and yet I feel only lovely empty space in my head, and inside, where I used to feel a 'me'. I feel the presence of Oneness, literally, and my senses are changed.
What is this self you are referring to?
Thought. This self is thought!

What is it that ...

Does it choose any of its directions? Is it even really a separate entity different from the water deposited in it, the rocks, the depressions in the ground and so on?

Is it even the same entity moment by moment, or more the product of weather conditions and water, like an ever-changing pattern ...

Yes, you got it. I've been feeling through this today, and maybe narrowed it down.

The fact that I feel somewhat detached now, sort-of 'meh' about most things, or possibly everything, I think that I am letting someone down by not feeling as I did before. Not caring? I am just figuring this out. My ...

Okay, here's a specific. It's Christmas. There is a desire of wanting my adult children to come over and see the house decorated, feel what I perceived in the past to feel the coziness of it, the security, the love.

At the same time, I can see clearly all of the attachments I had/have to it. What ...

I would say that when I look for self, I don't find one. Anywhere.There is empty space.I want to say, clearness, it is clear and empty. However, when lost in 'doing' there can be a sense of self 'doing'. So, not sure what that means.

Wow, it was so nice to open this page! I can feel so much All-that-is in it! It grabbed me immediately.

I have been having a very interesting week. I feel like I am walking through waves of swirling awareness. A lot of the time, everything seems like it is perfectly unfolding. There is no one ...

Hi Henri!
I am reeling from the weeklong meditation with Angelo. If I search for a 'self' I find nothing. As a matter of fact, I find a whole lot of nothing inside. Empty space. Not sure how long this will last, as my brain seems to be on the 'off' button. Not many thoughts. I plan to sit in this as ...