Hi Alan,

Thank you so much for guiding me. May this thread help anyone else that stumbles upon it.

Eternally honored to have encountered you and have the privilege of being guided,

Jerry

Hi Alan,

Here’s what I got down, happy to elaborate on anything.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No to all, and there was never such a thing.

2) Share in your own words what the illusion of separate self is and how ...

Hi Alan,

Still working on the questions, just letting you know.

Jerry

Hi Alan,

Before we dive in I'm very interested if there anything that you would like to report from your experience over the break

Over break it felt like things were solidifying a bit. It was clear that thought was overlaying the senses, and that’s still clear now by just looking around. There ...

Hi Alan,

But.......LOOKING DIRECTLY is there actually an experience of the ’now’ moving along the line of time?

No

Any experience of one ‘moment’ giving way to the next?

No

Is there any actual or direct experience of one event following another?

No, there’s just events.

How fast is ...

Hi Alan,

What is memory “made of”? What are the building blocks of memory?

Thought

When does memory appear?

Only now

What is the exact difference between a ‘general’ thought and a ‘memory’ thought?

There’s no exact difference

How is it known EXACTLY that a ‘memory’ thought refers to ...

Hi Alan,

What is memory “made of”? What are the building blocks of memory?

What the label “thought” describes

When does memory appear?

It’s appearing after reading this, as well as whenever thought gets on the topic of past. Sometimes thought will label present experience and then bridge ...

Again, look at what is actually going on and not what thoughts say… but what actually is.

Hi Alan,

Keeping this in mind and taking some more time with these questions.

Jerry

Hi Alan,

And taking this just a little further......
Look into the mirror throughout the day. The body image appears... notice that all that's really there are some colors, and a thought-story saying 'these colors are my body'

When you return to the mirror and look - have these 'body colors' have ...

Hi Alan,

5) Now, pay attention only to the image in the mirror. Does the image by itself suggest in any way that is ‘you’ or ‘your body’? Does the image itself suggest in any way that it is a ‘body’ at all? Or are there only colours and shapes?

By itself, no. There’s just a flat image of colors ...

Hi Alan,

If you are able to tell me a little more about that I would love to hear

Looking, it’s immediately apparent that “certainty”, “caring” and “me” cannot exist outside of thought. Since that was seen, there’s been less thoughts of those concepts and more space for other sensations ...

Hi Alan,

Take your time and sit with whatever needs to be sat with

Thank you, the nature of words makes this difficult to write. Thought looks like thought, no me to be found, no me to be certain of that statement, and no me to care about being certain.

Took a while to see and articulate that ...

The mirror exercise I’ll get to tomorrow

In summary what I hear you reporting is that thought is always trailing whatever happens and thought is never in control of anything.

Have I read right?

Yes, that’s correct

Confusion is a label for a story. And there will be two key parts to it.
A story and a sensation.
Right now look for the ...

1. When you wake of a morning and find yourself getting out of bed can you see a self choosing to leave the bed?

No, there wasn’t self-referential thought when getting out of bed, it was completely automatic.

Where does the "decision", the "command" to get up come from? What makes the body get ...