Hello Tom,

How are you?

What do you mean by "lost in thoughts"? I mean a thought comes up, and the awareness forgets about itself and assumes it's just a limited thinker. What sensation appear when that happen? It doesn't exist, but it creates itself out of the thoughts that reference themselves. Then it remembers it is a...

But, I might add, I am still lost in thoughts most of the time. These thoughts are in the awareness, but I have a hard time staying in the present for a long time.

What do you mean by "lost in thoughts"?


Tell me more about this "I" that is lost in thoughts.

What is this "I" made of?

I think you've really identified a big problem I've been having. I often have a hard time identifying my feelings. I am working on somatic experiencing with a therapist currently. Somatic Experiencing is fantastic I am SE therapist ^^ Learning to feel with the direct texture of the sensation is the...

I guess it doesn't feel like anything until another thought of who I think I am comes in and judges it. This is not about guessing. I find it strange how hard it seems for you to speak about your emotions. Maybe because I use the world:"feeling" and this word brings confusion. I started asking abou...

If remembering and forgetting don't feel like anything.

Why do you want to remember?

Why do you care if you forget?

When I forget to see the open awareness, I become lost in delusion.

When you become lost in delusion how does that feel?

Few message back your wrote: No awareness cannot be improved, but it can be forgotten. The forgetting keeps happening by becoming interested in the 'drama' of thinking, as you say. Remembering and forgetting don't feel like anything. Remembering feels like whatever past associations exist with the m...

That's an interesting question. Remembering and forgetting are not feelings, they just happen spontaneously.

ok, but tell me how it FEEL when one or the other happen.

How does it feel when you remember ?

How does it feel when you forget?

No awareness cannot be improved, but it can be forgotten. The forgetting keeps happening by becoming interested in the 'drama' of thinking, as you say.

How does it feel to remember ?
How does it feel to forget?

I have also noticed that I have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. It is just a few seconds until another thought takes my attention. That's why I keep asking about concentration... I feel like it is important to see the things you keep pointing to, and that improving my concentrati...

Let me know ^^

Hello Tom, Well no, that is a realization. I guess it's just overlooked because there aren't any bells and whistles or any wow moment (the belief that awakening is an extraordinary moment). Hahahahah Yes, the overlooking is the issue. It is so simple and accessible that our imagination and expectati...

I think that I am making this unnecessarily difficult for myself. Meaning that the me is being taken as a real separate thing here and I'm trying to see that it's not. This doesn't work. For the briefest moment, a minute ago, there was a relaxing back into myself and taking in what was there and th...

Over each other. For instance, when considering how to write this reply, there are several considerations. There are aspects that deal with clarity, emotional tone, respect and awareness of the reader for instance. They are like filters or algorithms that rapidly consider what has been said and the...

Hello Tom, I noticed that I was looking with the expectation that something is going to happen/something will be realized. Nothing hasn't really been realized though. All that's been happening is awareness of experience. To see that all that's been happening is awareness of experience is not a reali...