I've sent a message to the guide's group. When someone is ready, they'll post in this thread. This could take anywhere from a few hours to a few weeks.

So that's it for me. It was fun working with you Katty, and I wish you the very best of health :)

Hello Katty!

Sorry to hear about the cancer, but it sounds like the treatment is going well, which I am happy to hear :)

I'm currently not guiding, but if you want, I can ask if another guide is interested in working with you. Does that sound good to you?

Alright. Let me know if a self is found.

Be careful not to dismiss anything. Remember the brain wants to get rid of the cognitive dissonance. Stay with the experience instead of what makes sense. 👍

Looking for the 'me' doesn't reify it, so nothing to worry there. Once the penny drops fully, you can't bring back the self even if you wanted to.

Keep looking into any remaining sense of me.

What exactly is it that would be reified?

When something reifies, it has become a thing, so if you ...

Nice exploration, Tia!

Maybe you could test this. Try to replicate continuous thought while you sit now.

As your attention focuses on what is going on in the mind, do you feel a sense of self or me?

Is the sense of me the me that is in charge of your life?

And as you explore the sense of self ...

You are right on, Tia. The self is a defensive mechanism.

The ‘me’ truly does pop up most when continuous thought is perceived necessary. Also when I am around people that I don’t know well, and don’t really care to get to know (also usually at work).

Can you say more about this?

What is it ...

Nicely done!

And don't worry, I am here to help you stay focused on the self-illusion. 🎯

Is there a feeling that you are aware of not finding a 'me'?

Where is the feeling of 'me' strongest right now in your life?

Tia, I would like you to try something 🙂

Take what you last wrote, and put an E or T after every statement.

E = experience
T = thought

For example, if I just quickly make up something, it would look like this:

I have been wondering about how to see through the self -- T
There are sensations in ...

That's great that you noticed that it's the mind thinking it has something figured out.

Keep feeling into the resistance. Notice where it is in the body and sink into it.

You can use the stories and thoughts to bring up feelings, but then remain with the feeling as best you can.

There may be ...

That's good. When there's a thought with massive resistance, go into the sensations and feel them fully until they are done.

It's like relaxing into a warm bath (with the sensations). Let the resistance expand to your whole body and do what it wants to do. It may feel dangerous, but it is not, as ...

Wanting to be happy all the time is what we all want. Unfortunately, it's just not possible. And the fact that it's not possible is not a problem :)

Let me know how the exploration goes!

That's great looking, Tia. 🙂

Each time you notice a whiff of a sense of self, keep looking into it.

Anger and disappointment is to be expected during this journey. The self often acts as a defense mechanism, so when it starts weakening, things can start to bubble up to the surface.

Can you ...

You're doing great. The frustration is to be expected. Take things one step at a time and give yourself time to take a break and relax if you need it.

Inquiry can be tough. I've wanted to give up many times :)

It might be helpful to explore: Is there a self that doesn't want to do this anymore?

👍

If it feels like there's a 'me' then the belief is still alive and kicking. You cannot think it away.

So notice where you feel a 'me' and look over and over.

If you find nothing, you could ask: There is no self -- is it true?

Don't look to any thought for an answer. Instead, search the sense of ...

It might help to think of direct experience as the same as sensory experience.

For example, a flat surface with legs underneath (direct/sensory experience) is called a table.

Find out which sensory experience is called 'me'.

As for the aliveness looking out of the eyes:

- What exactly is looking ...