Thank you so much, Jon, for your warm, steady and patient support! It has been a journey full of wonders and I am certainly looking forward to how it can continue.
I am so very grateful that you spend your time here - and of course the whole crew making this work here possible.

May it last!
Aguila

Hi Jon,
"But I want to get this right!”.

Is there any one who could get it right or wrong?

"I feel so lost."
Really? Please explain who is lost and why it matters?
Now you could see me rolling my eyes - of course there is no “I” to get it right (or wrong). And there is no fixed "I" that can be ...

Hi Jon,

Mostly numper 5. It is not so much a specific question but rather the fact of talking about something that is not there. I kept thinking “what the hell are we talking about???”.
And of course I understand it is about direct experience - but I cannot find any direct experience to talk about ...

Hi Jon,
the final questions:
Describe control & give examples from experience.
I think this is driving me crazy, to try to describe things that do not work. Feels like wading in chewing gum.
Ok, control. Deciding and moving things as I wish. Obviously the same as with the other concepts: all ...

Describe free will & give examples from experience.
I really try hard to talk from (sensorial) experience and not speculate - not easy.
Free will I would define roughly as “doing whatever I want” and I see it closely related to decision and choice: there are options and “I” get to decide and ...

Hi Jon,
another one:
5) Describe decision & give examples from experience.
Biiig topic for me historically…
A decision needs to happen when there are options - and it happens constantly without it being noticed most of the times. Fortunately there is no thought “shall I breath in now? Or maybe now ...

And another piece: 3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.

Again I find it hard to say. There is no big emotion in this regard. A general greater calmness, maybe. There is a lot going on in my life so it ...

Hi Jon,

here is the continuation:
2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.
...
For example, today there was pain in the head when I woke up. First (conscious) thought: “I have a ...

Hi Jon,
1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever? No. It is a thought. And never was something else. Not sure how to elaborate on that. There was always just a flow of events.
Though it still feels a bit strange to acknowledge it ...

Hi Jon,

Of course, go ahead!

Take care
Aguila

Hi Jon,
It can take some time to move from occasionally seeing that there is no "doer" that "makes things happen" to (more or less) forgetting to have to bother about it. There doesn't seem to be any fixed standard or rule about how long that takes. Thanks, that helps.

But the exploring you have ...

Hi Jon, Well, the good thing is that it's noticed and whilst there's judgement and judgement of judgement, there is also no judgement . This is not something that a "doer" has to "do" in order to change things. Yes. And not having to do something, is a very uncommon thought. I am getting used to it ...

Hi Jon,
today I went again through hand on table exercise: No hand, no table - only the perception, it is really obvious. Only in contact, with perception the hand seems to materialize.
Well, looking closer, that is not totally true: there is some tingling in the hand, signalizing its existence ...

Hi Jon,

Yes, honest looking and no judging both seem essential! And both so easy to sneak by without even noticing.:-( it takes time to build new habits.
Currently I am traveling and I am observing that being outside of my routines I spend more time somehow absorbed in the moment, just busy dealing ...

Hi Jon
Let me know if there's anything you'd like us to look at together? Well, the funny thing is that by now sometimes I can predict what you would say. So I do not have to ask. :-)
One thing keeps coming to my mind. For example today I had a moment of fear about something that might happen. I ...