1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
No. when looking no separate self can be found. There never was any separate self

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own ...

To be clear. Are the questions below the ones?

Are you doing the seeing?

Are you doing the hearing?

Do you see a separate self?

Ask any question to this separate self and just wait for the answers.

Are you doing the seeing?
Upon looking there is no separate self to see. Seeing is just happening. There is an awareness of seeing.

Are you doing the hearing?
With no separate self to be found, hearing just happens on its own

Do you see a separate self?
Upon looking -no separate self can be ...

I'll need some more time to sit with this one as yes I do still need to remind myself. the old conditioning is still very strong here.

How do you feel in your daily life : is there a separate self, Noel operating ?
It is getting easier to what and be aware that all life is just happening and no separate self doing anything.


Is there a separate self in others?
Ha funny you ask. This one I logically know. However I have to stop ...

Is there a separate self which is living a separate life, seeing, doing, thinking or taking decisions ?

When looking no separate self can be found. No separate self seeing, doing, thinking or taking decisions. All these things are just happening and there is awareness that they are happening ...

Go for a walk in a park or in nature and report back what is going on as seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting and sensations.

Did not walk in the park but sat on my front porch for awhile. All that was happening was awareness of the 5 senses + thought.
Seeing, hearing, feeling, smelling, no tasting ...

1. Can thought experience thought? Can thought experience anything? (Thought is so very overrated - by thought).

When looking I can see that thought DOES NOT experience anything. It is awareness that is having the experience of thought

2. Does thought make any contact with other kinds of sense ...

Do you want to look at something in particular ?
I would like a few more exercised on thoughts.

there a lasting doubt about seeing through the illusion of a separate self ?

whenever I look, I can not find a separate self. I look a few times a week to reinforce that there is no separate self

Is it clear that a you, Noel, a separate self are non existent outside of thoughts ?
When I look closely I can not find a “noel” outside of thought. So then I ask what is here. All I get is direct experience arising within awareness. There is awareness but not a separate me character.


Did a ...

Have a look at an apple (or any fruit you like.) If you have a ‘real’ apple, you can use it for this exercise.
When looking at an apple, there's color; a thought saying ‘apple’; and maybe a thought saying, "I'm looking at an apple."
What is known for sure? Color is known and thoughts are known ...

Is “something” other than awareness knows about old conditioned thoughts? Look
When I look – there is only awareness. Everything is arising within awareness. Now I see what you mean. Even the conditioning is arising in awareness.

When you look at the word label ‘ GREEN ’, what is the actual ...

awareness is everything. Everything is happening inside of awareness. Thoughts, hearing, seeing, smelling, tasting, feeling all happening inside awareness.
Is it the experience of here now or is it what you read in books or watched in videos ?

This is what I mean by “when I focus”. If I slow down ...

What is awareness in direct experience ?
awareness is everything. Everything is happening inside of awareness. Thoughts, hearing, seeing, smelling, tasting, feeling all happening inside awareness.

Is there a link between you and awareness? I am that awareness


Who or what is remembering ...

Is there an expectation that conditioning will stop playing once the illusion is seen through?
When looking closer – yes it is now seen that there is an expectation for the conditioning to lessen

How is that which is going back and forth is experienced exactly?
So awareness has to focus for the ...