“ 1) do you have free will or make decisions?”
No. It certainly seems as if "I" have free will or make decisions, but upon examination, most everything is a reaction to whatever arises (a need, question, action), and the decision is seemingly made by the "I", but really, it seems all based on ...

Hi Warissem,

It has been an interesting few days :) Answers below.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?
No. Only thoughts constructing a self. Which is rather amazing actually. There has never been a self or I.

2) Give in ...

Hi Warissem,

Thank you for your help. And thank you for your patience as so much frustration and confusion arose. Also, I seem to have a ridiculous amount of difficulty writing about awakening or anything related to it, so thank you for bearing with me.

Meanwhile, look at nature, animals, people ...

Hi Warissem,

I have been looking. Yes, you are very right I have been looking at objects and also expecting something magical to happen.
It is right here now. There is no actual self - there is watching/awareness of a character called Jenny.

Is there a boarder between this "space without thought ...

Hi Warissem,

I am going to take the day to look and notice.
Currently, there is immense frustration and hopelessness running in the thoughts. In one sense, it feels as if I am very close to the truth of knowing there is no self, then waves of thought-identification become consuming.
Just a little ...

Yes, “I” thoughts are not you, then what are you ?
When I ask "What am I?" and look, there is a feeling or sensation of an I. "I" locate that feeling. Where is it? In the head, in the back. A pressure or a tingling But there is no I there. And whatever I am is there whether attention is on the ...

What is a doubt in your own words ?
Doubts are just more thoughts. And they are being believed to be who I am and how experience is interpreted.

Don’t believe thoughts. Look at direct experience. A thought cannot veil the present moment and don’t create any sensation. It is a thought which says ...

Hi Warissem,

There is still doubt and seeking.
As the final questions near, perhaps that is why the doubt wall has grown tall again. Today I have been busy without much time for reflection, and the thoughts in the few moments of quiet say, "see you will never awaken because you are focused on this ...

Can you find anywhere where SJ autonomously intervenes into life, choosing something that is not the product of all the elements; that is not a part of the overall flow?

No. There is just the flow. If "I" am of this flow, I cannot single a self out of it.

Now please consider a regular decision ...

Hi Warissem,

I will take another day to consider these questions. I have enjoyed considering how choice comes along, or if it even does.
Could you elaborate on "choosing something that is not the product of all the elements; that is not a part of the overall flow"?
What do you mean by the product ...

Hi Warissem,

Go for a walk in a park or wherever and observe what is going on. See that there is no self needed.

Come back with what arises.

I went for a walk in a park as you suggested. What was observed was that there is only right now. Direct experience of sensations and/or thoughts ...

but there is a sensation that something is experiencing.

Ok, not sensation - that is a thought/concept - but there is something experiencing

Hi Warissem,



What has to be done is not to change the experience, but to change the way it is seen. The awakening is to see directly without the filters of beliefs. The goal of this dialog is to make you SEE that "the existence of a person, a separate self" is not true, it is a belief. We do ...

I will post a reply for you tomorrow. I have spent the time looking and inquiring but will take some more time to look at what you are saying before responding.
SJ

Now, what is missing ?
I'm not entirely certain... other than "I know" I'm not there yet as in finished disidentifying/disbelieving thoughts/beliefs or that there is still something to be done (though I conceptually understand that it is always here, but it is not currently realized or there hasn ...