Hi Lilpil,

Other guides have no further questions for you. It has been a pleasure to explore the concept of the separate self with you. Thank you for being open and willing to look.

Keep an eye out for an email notification notifying you of a PM (private message) from the forum inviting you to ...

Hi Lilpil,

Thank you for your responses. I am going to ask other guides to have a look at the thread to ensure that I have covered everything and that my pointing has been clear. This may take a few days. Other guides might have further questions, and if they do, I will bring them to you.

Vivien ...

6) Anything to add?

I cant think of anything right now. :)

5) a) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How does it work?
Give examples from your own recent experiences to how things happen and how things work.

a) It looks like decisions are made, but there is only one thing leading to another. It is the ...

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over; made you look?
The PAIN! And looking at the sensations in the body that had never been noticed before, not like this seeing what the body is. It is whole lot of sensations! Maybe hundreds I don´t know. And looking for the owner. That was it. Blessed ...

3) How does it feel to see this?
What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.
It is like there has been lifted a lot of weight of my bak, and a dark cloud disappeared from my mind. Everything seems more beautiful and peaceful, more lightness ...

2) Share in your own words what the illusion of separate self is and how it shows up in experience. Also, through your inquiry, what is different now?

"Self" "I" "me". It was a believe that felt true because We used these words all the time ," I dit this, I am this,- and that I own, I feel, I am ...

Hi Vivien

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?

No there is not in any shape or form an never has been. I have looked it has no place in this so called body.

Is there any topic that is not totally clear and you would like to look at?

I thought there would be more, I don´t know what, to this realization, I am just so calm and content :)

Is there any doubt?

No there is no doupt!

Can you say with 100% certainty that there has been a shift from an intellectual understanding of there being no separate self, to an experiential recognition of it?
Yes 100%
Believing a thought. When I was a little girl I believed a thought and it became stronger and stronger as years went by ...

Hi Vivian
If you don’t think the thought “bad”, what happens then?
Is there still a dislike without calling it ‘bad’?

When I close my eyes and pay attention to sensations in the body, there are so so many sensations in the body I don´t think I can count them! I don´t know if they are all there ...

Where is the resister?

There is no resister.

Vivian is it ok if I answer your next post Sunday evening?

Who resists it?

There seems to be a resisting in the body, it and that makes it only worse, as you can see there is an avoidance answering.There is a beleve there is an illusonari I not liking the pain.

Who doesn’t like it?

It is a belief? If I would go out now and shovel the snow from my car this pain would disappear, the difficulty would overshadow the pain. I guess pain is pain and there is nothing more to say about it.