That's okay Stafford, no need to apologise :)
I'm really grateful for your time and guidance.
I think i leave this for a while.
Best wishes
Alex :)

Hi,
........Now is the One that's keeping things going is That One Reliable can You depend on that to be stable & Clear All the time ?!?

The one that keeps things going is not reliable and dependable. It’s all from the mind.

.......Now in the same place not separate from Anyone ironically ...

Hi Stafford


Now is the One asking What's This Seeking about Reliable can You Trust in it's Thinking & Would You Trust in the answer without another question !!!


The One that is asking is the One that is seeking - the One that wants to end seeking and ironically keeps it going.
The other One ...

Hi Stafford,

It's just Not anyway but Looks like All ways !?! Crazy confusing when it's Conceptualized !?! I
Know There's Absolutely Nothing I can Say that's close to Truth about This...!!! However Seeing Nothing I have too do to Be is Absolutely Clear & Sense Obviously Firing on their own ...

Hi Stafford


Now Seeing Different People & Things, When is The Seeing Separate From The People & Things & Wouldn't That Be Isness as well & then one again when & where will it stop and when would it begin & Who could Know ??? And Yes You're Right there is no sense of oneness or wholeness or non ...

Hi Tanya and Stafford! :)




Hey Alex,

Something has come up and I am going to take a break from guiding for now. I have another guide that says they will continue on this inquiry with you. You're going really well with this investigation and feel you're close to seeing through the illusion of ...

Hi Tanya!


But would it be fair to say you aren’t doing the searching. Searching is just happening?


True, seeking is just happening and frustration with that is just what is also happening.

What could stop the searching?
nothing could stop it, the seeking is just part of the experience here ...

Hi Tanya!


When you say ‘futility of life’ what do you mean by that? I just want to check emotionally/mentally you are ok :)
What are meaning and purpose exactly?
Can meaning and purpose be experienced or is meaning and purpose added after the fact?
Is meaning and purpose just a concept?


Sorry ...

Hi Tanya! :)


Could it be that looking,asking questions and the noticing alex is not found is just happening? What is not just happening?


Yes, exactly -everything is just happening, including asking questions, looking and noticing or not noticing.
....noticing of the futility of life is also ...

Hi Tanya!


Sorry for the delay in replying. I thought I had sent you a reply on Friday but maybe I left this page before I sent it.

That's fine, not a problem.


I could not find alex anywhere, there is no alex in the body. In fact it can be called anything really, any name or no name at all ...

Hi Tanya :)

Yes, you may call me Alex.

Reading is good and very enjoyable but what actually helps see through the illusion of a separate self is questioning the validity of said self. LOOKING repeatedly to see if there is this self you’ve believed to be your whole life.

That is why I'm here. I ...

Hi Tanya


This is just like that. You may see clearly that the self is an illusion but still feel a sense of self - just like the keys. But feeling something to be true and seeing that it is or is not is different.


Yes, exactly that - reading all the books and listening to the speakers on self ...

Hi Tanya


I'd say that the "I" is five body senses and thoughts - "my thoughts and feelings - "my feelings"
Yes,when you look for it it can’t be found, don’t you find that interesting? :)


Yes, that was brilliant! I’ve been reading about it but never looked at self in this way. :)


Just to ...

Hi Tanya

Thank you for the reply. I'm really grateful for your help.




Does the feeling itself tell you that you are an I or there simply a feeling or sensation appearing?


That is a very good question. When I looked at the feeling of an "I" I couldn’t find the exact location for it. But it ...

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
I have been listening to some non-duality speakers for some time now. What they say has resonated very deeply and sometimes there’s an understanding that life is just unfolding and no one is doing ...