Ok thank you!

Hi Vivian,


1)Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?
The only ‘self’, ‘me’, ‘I’ entity is a thought, an image that is not real. It can’t be found in reality. It can’t be found inside of a body, there is no body, only an ...

Thank you Vivian!
You can go ahead with the final questions.
Olivia

Hi Vivian,

Can Olivia awaken?
No, she is not real. Even if there were some awakening thoughts about her, they would be just a story. In her story and in the fantasy land, anything can happen. In Olivia’s story, she had some moments of awakening and insight through inquiry or spontaneous insights ...

Vivian,

What is it that wants a permanent shift?
Haha, the no-one who believes the shift should be greater and permanent.
There was a conversation in the mind going like this: Surely, when you have an orgasm for the first time, you know it. If you're not sure, then that's probably not it! lol ...

Can you say with certainty that there has been a shift from an intellectual understanding of there being no separate self to an experiential recognition of it?
Hi Vivian, there has definitely been an experiential shift in seeing the emptiness instead of the ‘me’ to whom the experiences happen. ‘I ...

What about control, decision and free will?
Since nobody can control the thoughts or awareness, there is no control. Decisions are made by themselves when they do. And there is no free will. What a relief! (It only appears there is) I had a lucid dream last night, where, apparently I noticed I was ...

Vivian,

Turn your attention to this ME that thoughts are talking TO, and showing images TO.
Where is this me?
That was a great question! I looked with eyes closed and the thoughts floated in the mind-space. I did vaguely see Olivia’s head behind my closed eyes, overlapping with Olivia’s physical ...

Taking this discovery in mind, what is it that you perceive yourself to be in your everyday life? I don’t mean what you intellectual understand and reason what you are, but rather what is it that you perceived yourself to be experientially in the mist of ordinary life?

That's a big one. Ok so I ...

Hi Vivian,

Have you looked and investigated with the above questions? Or you brushed them aside by thinking that “I didn’t mean to imply there was a thinker”?
I looked and investigated. But I wasn’t sure, so I did brush them aside.

Even if you didn’t mean to imply that, please always look with ...

Hi Vivian,

V: Is there an I thinking thoughts?
O: Maybe some greater I beyond the stories and appearances
Is this a thought that you thought?
Yes

Isn’t this just a story, a speculation, a theory trying to comply with the belief that there must be something or someone thinking thoughts?
Yes ...

Yes, past and future are just stories. All there is this very moment, and those images and stories ABOUT past an future appear NOW. Can you see that?
Yes!

So now the question is: Does Olivia exist outside of those mental movies and stories?
No
Does Olivia exist in actuality?
No

Is there ...

Hi Vivian,
I had an amazing experience last night! I was meditating on the questions you wrote to me last night but didn’t have any expectations about them. But I looked what’s ‘there’.
And so now I saw Olivia as an image on a screen that was appearing in my mind vision. All the past and future ...

Hi Vivian,
If you look at this very closely, isn’t the just another subtle story/interpretation of the experience of the ever changing sensations?
I see, yes even those descriptions are stories, the raw experience would be just sensations changing or appearing more intense and subsiding.

What ...

What are the labels? What are the thoughts ABOUT it?
Breathing - It’s life force giving, it’s automatic, it shouldn’t be so shallow, it’s slow, gradual, comforting, keeps me alive,
I’m being breathed, I can control my breath, it’s the bridge between mind and body, is to bring oxygen into my body ...