And then there is the stuff thats to damp (soaking wet?) to burn. The stuff I am really attached to, the stories I havent been able let go of...they still cling to me like white on rice...as they say. I made a few potentially costly mistakes at work after days of effort...now potentially "wasted ...

Hey -ya Vince

Just letting the fires rage out of control...letting it burn what it will..as if I have a choice in the matter. In fact I keep throwing more beliefs,opinions, positions onto the blaze. I can see how it ALL has to go. And good riddance.!! I suppose they have served some purpose and ...

Vince,
"Even This?" That's what I bring to whatever is showing up. Currently I am in the midst of a big pity-party for poor ole bennett and how fucked up he and the world are. So, somehow, even all these rotten feelings of just feeling bad about all the stupid shit I continue to do and the stupid ...

Hello again Vince...I'm back

Lots of doing and undoing. Some very stubborn and persistent story lines going on here. Sure as heck seems like I , this bennett thing, went off on vacation and laid on a beach, went hiking, ate out, enjoyed the view etc etc. Am i better off for it, or was it just ...

Morning Vince
Just wanted to let you know I will be out of town and out of touch for a few days (4-5). The wife and I are going on a much needed holiday. I'll be in touch when I return...or sooner if there is wifi and I have something to report. Right now I feel like I'm in between two dimensions ...

Hi Vince

I would call it a bit of stunned surprise and bewilderment, with a touch of "your kidding, right?" humor.....and "pinch me, am I dreaming" ( what a funny twist that saying is here) There is some elation in there for sure...that would be the freedom part shining thru. ITs still settling in ...

Hey Vince...

I've been living with this beaut all day

That no thought is worthy of your focus or attention.

Just like that? NO thought...none...zero..The Bagel..no exceptions??!!!!!...no need to decipher or distinguish or consider..or nuthin...send them all to the rubbish bin. Ahh...what fun ...

Holy Crap Vince...Thats it!

Oh you've got it. You're just not happy with it. You think that if you settle for this that you're shortchanging yourself.
I've been looking for something, anything, other than THIS...Are you telling me THIS, the part I dont want to settle for, is IT? That its been ...

Hello Again Vince

Something Ive been noticing quite a lot of late are stronger than usual feelings of being jaded, cynical, sarcastic, dismissive, judgmental.....about the current prevalent world view on , well, darn near everything...politics, war (now there's a real totally, avoidable and ...

Holly crap, Vince, what a mind mess! The thoughts in my head are a runaway train.

So what'd I find? Lots and lots of thought chatter..most of it coming on so fast and furious and crowded in that its hard to get a hold of any one that might be more revered than the others. There did emerge from that ...

Do this for three days before posting again.

Roger Roger

Morning Vince

I've been feeling trepidation...or something like that....anxiety of some flavor....certainly a reluctance, hesitancy, and a bit of staling ....around opening and responding to your posts. Not just you ..same with Stacy. Dont know what that is about. These feel somewhat like pressure ...

Hey Vince

Yeah Nah. Forget the woo woo stuff. Keep it real (you know what i mean by that.) If you expressing anger (as an example) and you can see that your expressing anger, it's hard to do both at the same time.

Its all woo woo stuff. Its all stories about stories about concepts about beliefs ...

Hey there Vince

.but we don't need to get bogged down with it.
Thanks for the warning...getting bogged down in the understandings has been one of those conditioned habits of "mine"..but then again so is seeing them as "my" habits and "my" conditioning. Bogs everywhere!...and I can see how the "I ...

Hello again Vince
Thanks for the very insightful reply. You sure have a way of seeing right thru the BS to the heart of the matter.

If these feelings are simply arising and being experienced by ....no one....no subject...no noun...just the verb....just experiencing...than what needs dropping ...