You didn't really ask me a question in your last correspondence, which is okay.

So, I thought I would write you about something that may have given me a better glimpse. It's weird, but bear with me.

I hope you've seen the move "Being John Malkovich".

I was thinking about experiencing a nondual ...

Before I respond to your last post I thought it may be good to check in with you to see how you are getting on with this inquiry? Are you managing to find time to look in your daily schedule? If so, have you noticed anything has changed in the way you look? How about spending more or less time in ...

Can you say a bit more about what makes a "memory" different from any other type of thought? What is the difference between a memory and a fantasy about the future?[/quote

A memory and a fantasy about the future are similar in that they are both not actually happening. They are made up scenarios ...

Does the words "I" "me" "mine" have any specific resonance within you? Does the word "Paul" evoke any specific resonance within you?

I would have to saty that it still does. It evokes certain memories, and faces of people that know me as "Paul" the label. But I know that "Paul" could never ...

What is actually happening when you "take the thought seriously"? What is the difference in DE between observing a thought and being dis-identified from it and becoming caught up, identified with or taking the thought seriously?

Difficult question. I think it's a subconscious habit. When I'm in ...

So what happens when you "identify" with a thought as opposed to being simply aware of a thought?

I take the thought seriously as a thing (in the material world, or nearly material), as opposed to just a symbol that represents an actual thing.

Is is possible to have a thought about yourself ...

Sorry for the delay....

One thought I have which I would like to share with you is that sometimes people come into this process and expect a Big Bang type revelation (and it can be like that for a few) but more usually the seeing that there is no self or I at the centre of experience is a quiet ...

Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No there is not, and there never was. I still have been falling into the I illusion. I've been doing a lot more stopping during the day to ask about my own behavior. Is there an "I ...

I am back, and I had a great trip. I am looking forward to continuing the looking.

So do you exist in any form whatsoever?

Do you exist in your reflection in the mirror?

Do you exist in thoughts you have about yourself

Do you exist in thoughts other people have about you?

No, I do not exist ...

So what is the glue that holds together the imaginal self of stories, images, memories? Can you find in DE the anchor which holds together the fiction that "Paul" exists?

There is no glue that holds the imagined self of stories,images,and memories, ultimately. It's just random stories, images in ...

In terms of looking at a screen to watch films or shows what is experienced? Colours/shapes and sounds. When you watch Pulp fiction are the actors/characters with you in the room? are they real in any way apart from in your imagination?

The characters are not real apart from my imagination. They ...

So what you are saying is that some thoughts (usually about the I/me) have the power to cause physical reactions and some thoughts don't have any effect at all. What is about the particular thoughts of I/me/mine that have the power to cause effect when the thoughts themselves are empty symbols ...

Can you find any sign or presence of an I in awareness apart from thoughts of I?
No Awareness is Awareness. When awareness is being experienced there is no I, and rarely any thoughts of I. And if there were a thought of I it would eventually just float away like the thought of a cat or an ice ...

Do any of the above thoughts belong to you in any way? Do you exist in any type of thought or is the case that thoughts are simply arising in awareness? If you are not the thoughts are you the seer/witness of those thoughts?

These thoughts do not bleong to me, they are just arising in awareness ...

how do you know that you have an ego? What evidence is there in your experience that an ego exists?

There is no real evidence that I have an ego. It is a persistant illusion, however, based on habits that I identify with or that seem to follow this locus of consciousness around.


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