Hello Luchsna and Lubo, if you still have any spaces free, I would be very interested to be guided on video, zoom or skype. (Jonathan R is full :- )
thanks,
Johnboy

Hllo Jonathan, me too, I'm very interested to be guided by videochat, zoom or skype.

ok, I don't want to go down the passive-aggressive punishing you road!
So, looking again, I agree with you:

'' Now, were this perception to be resolved, there would be no anxiety of how others feel about me, because I have resolved that and no longer feel that anymore - and yes, I'm no angel, and ...

What shows up is that I'm not very interested in this! gulp! A surprise, but also a relief to say it I appreciate your encouragement and effort. Is this the only way forward? Is it possible to enquire via the five senses, for example. My sensations and where is the hearer,see-er , taster etc in that?

not sure how to reply to this one.
What I don't want to look at is my near continual more-or-less-background anxiety. I don't want to admit it to myself.On the occasions when I do, it's okay, not the end of the world at all, indeed it's a relief.I feel harmonious and connected and whole. I don't ...

resisting it, pushing it away. I don't want to be the source of the disapproval! Slowing down, I can consider that much of what I don't like outside of me indeed has roots inside of me. Eg, projecting my anger onto other people.

no, obviously I wouldn't. Thank you. So this suggests I hold the belief that I'm worthy of disapproval! That's terrible! And means I'm attracting it!

Even when a weekend goes really well, there's still a part of me that makes me pay a price-exaggerated tiredness afterwards or my body somatising medical conditions (more in the past than now)

fear of getting it wrong- the price. Asking for too much. And, if I get it, more anxiety about having to give value for money. Which is all ridiculous, because usually I'm very good!
Fear of disapproval, of not being liked.
Also, underneath, fear of success in life. It's coming late in life, 62 ...

Mainly I'm an introvert, and somehow for work I have to stand up in front of people and 'perform'. Anxiety beforehand. Also if I have to write an email outlining how much my services cost. Anxiety is almost ever present in my experience. I know that the only way is to turn and face it and include it ...

Mainly I'm an introvert, and somehow for work I have to stand up in front of people and 'perform'. Anxiety beforehand. Also if I have to write an email outlining how much my services cost. Anxiety is almost ever present in my experience. I know that the only way is to turn and face it and include it ...

Mainly I'm an introvert, and somehow for work I have to stand up in front of people and 'perform'. Anxiety beforehand. Also if I have to write an email outlining how much my services cost. Anxiety is almost ever present in my experience. I know that the only way is to turn and face it and include it ...

Mainly I'm an introvert, and somehow for work I have to stand up in front of people and 'perform'. Anxiety beforehand. Also if I have to write an email outlining how much my services cost. Anxiety is almost ever present in my experience. I know that the only way is to turn and face it and include it ...

Mainly I'm an introvert, and somehow for work I have to stand up in front of people and 'perform'. Anxiety beforehand. Also if I have to write an email outlining how much my services cost. Anxiety is almost ever present in my experience. I know that the only way is to turn and face it and include it ...

Hello, yes I'm ready to explore, thanks