Actually, I've learned an important thing from you.

Well, it is a great feeling to know that I can possibly have helped you in any way!!
But if it helps you in your guiding others, then that is a good thing.

On there being something missing, I had absolutely committed to myself and to you to be ...

Hi Vivien,

Thank you very much to you too! It has been a very valuable journey. There is so much relief to now see and know why so much time was wasted seeking in the wrong direction! But I guess that's what happened anyway!

The result is that even the urge or any interest in seeking has fallen ...

Hi Vivien,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?
No, there is no such entity, anywhere, in any way, shape or form and there never was.
It is nothing more than a pervasive belief, based in thought, which then triggers other ...

Hi Vivien,

What we usually do at this state of the process is to ask some final questions to see if everything is totally clear.
Are you ready for these final questions?

Yes, sure. Fire away. Thank you.

Hi Vivian,

What I suggest to do is to wait a day or two to see if anything comes up.
Just wait and see what happens. Please write me in a few days, how things are going.

As you suggested, I am writing after a day or two to report back.

It is of course hard to convey what has changed!
As I said ...

Ok, Vivien. That is a good idea.
Will report back.

Thank you
Ian

But seeing seems to be more difficult and I belief that is because there is belief in thought images about seeing and looking and who is looking or seeing that create the sense that seeing is somehow "in here". There is more of a sense of a "looker" than there is a "hearer" and with the belief in ...

Hi Vivien,

I’ve been very busy, and I have too many clients, so sometimes I cannot reply to everyone.

That’s what I expected. No problems. We are all very grateful for your time.



Imagine that you are a new born baby, who has no knowledge about the world, don’t know anything about the objects ...

Hi Vivien,

There does not seem to be a reply from you today.
I hope you are well.
I assume that you must be very busy.
I look forward to hearing from you hopefully tomorrow.

Still feel very much that I need your continued guidance.
I think that I need to spend more time on the direct experiential ...

Hi Vivien

I will use the example of the sound of the fridge.
OK great, here it is an ice maker!!


So the sound is not experienced in the head, at the ear. Is this totally clear experientially?

Yes, there is a clear strong sense that the sound is not in the head or at the ears.


The sound is ...

Ok, Vivien, thank you.
I can see that noticing the belief in every one of those thoughts could take a long time. I think your pointer to the felt sensations those beliefs create is a useful one to notice when a belief is in action, but some are even more subtle. I find that just learning from you ...

Hi Vivien,

I've been looking at this very closely all day. Even just the understanding of the mechanism of the thought stories being believed to be real starts to weaken their hold. To weaken their impact on experience.

But this has given rise to a question:

I understand and know that in ...

Hi Vivien,


You have to describe your experience, otherwise I wouldn’t have any idea where you are at the moment. But when you describe it, you have to use words to describes the experience as precisely as you can, WITHOUT ADDING anything extra.

Yes, you have helped me to be more aware of that ...

Hi Vivien,

The thing is that you got hang up on language, on words, and thus you failed to look what those questions pointed to.

Yes, words will never be able to come even close to what is, but we need words to communicate.

Yes and no! I didn’t fail to look. I certainly looked at what the ...

Hi Vivien,

There are some repetition with my questions, but it’s intentional.

No problem. You are the guide. I am grateful.


No, I do mean the felt sensation. When I sense the feeling in that place, it is not a mental image of anything. It is a felt sensation of looking.
Felt sensation of ...