Nobody is joining.. So please it seems that the thread should be closed.
Thanks

Oh..
Sorry to hear you leaving..
For sure I am still interested, if you think that it could be o good choice.
Reflecting on pour condition is always a good option for me.

P.S. If you decided to keep writing to me, I would be happy

Well, thank you very much, that's definitely interesting, and that's the direction I was heading my questions to (btw: my father was a Neuroradiologist 😁)
Actually, it does seem that decisions could grow spontaneously from the seeds we planted in our minds previously..

So another question arise ...

Actually not..
I try to check, and yes, there are inner and outer conditions, but the moment when i take the decisions still remains something unfathomable.
Still remains a fraction of time where I can say "no", despite all the conditions I choose to do something different.
I try to relax, and to ...

I'm checking and checking..
Will I have coffee or tea? I'm going to meet that person or finishing a task?
I'm trying to open the central unit where the decisions are taken.
Sometimes decisions are in harmony with life and conditions.
But sometimes they are wrong decisions, and are against them.
So ...

Let's see..
I'm gonna have some tea or a coffee..?
Of course there are mind imprints, cause and conditions, environmental influence but..
Do you say that that's all, and the choice is pre-determined..?
So that I'll just choose one or the other based only on the given conditions..?
I wonder.. What's ...

That's utterly interesting, and totally important.
I tried to check it in these days.. Actually I can't find how it could be not me taking decisions.
I'm totally interested in finding out the truth on this subject.

To me.. The answer is yes, it's this mind known as "me" who runs the show.
It's "me" who decide or that take action
Isn't it?

Ok but.. what should I do?
How? Is there a practice to get there?

A consideration..
I used to do some meditation for educating and changing bad behaviours and emotional tendencies..
Like changing greed to generosity, hatred to kindness, anger to calmness..

Noe I'm trying to observe and "stay on the feeling" without changing it..

I wonder.. How do these ...

I think that I get what you say..
You mean to be fully in your state/emotion, whatever it is, without trying to change it.
This is beautiful.

Maybe the tension to avoid that I was referring to is not meant to be towards a goal, but towards changing the feeling itself.

I will try to do that.. I ...

It's a super simple question, but the answer is far from easy..

The first answer that comes into my mind is.. tension towards something (or away from something, which is still tension towards something else)..

In my present experience I must say that yes, I do feel very incomplete.
I would, but I can't say otherwise.
I'm caught in problems, and I miss peace actually

Sorry dir the delay, I have been busy.
So, what should I start from..?
A meditation? An observing..? Or what?

I think that the reality that I can experience is that in contact with my mind..
But how can I extend it to everything else..? Or to others mind? I can't experience their world

So it's ...

I mean..
I know it's a bit off topic, I was just curious about what are the implications of this way of thinking.

Apart from that, I can experience what is outside this body, just about the small portion that is directly in contact with it.

What you say, is that I shouldn't locate my mind, but ...