This has been a very beautiful and interesting experience. Thank you for your help and guidance through it.

now I just need to keep practicing! You're so right about it's just the beginning.. to take the seeing and apply it is the test, which I am happy to try on my own and see what happens ...

Ilona,

Reflecting on the post I made yesterday:

To see that all beings, people, animals, insects, plants, etc are all void of any suchness, essence, self, etc is what was experienced. We all share that so we're all in the same boat in that sense. The boyfriend takes a sip of water because he is ...

Reflecting, I am unsure if I have applied this to others yet. General populations like the city I live in, yes. My closest people... honestly it didn't even cross my mind until you have mentioned it now. "My" partner (is firstly not mine and second) is also an expression of nature and a collection ...

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
Only a story, never a separate entity. When "I" look, there is no self to be found anywhere.


2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works ...

YES!

Hi Ilona,
I had this written up but apparently forgot to press send:

Yes sort of a weird statement I agree. I was kind of grabbing at straws.

Life is just a happening and I am a part of that happening. That definitely makes sense.

I'm not sure what else to write or ask Ilona. Thank you for ...

What looks different.. good question.

Honestly unsure, I still have some short term memory loss from the car accident and days just kind of melt into one another. Weeks go by in a flash. I have noticed the last few days (? maybe a week, maybe 2..) I have been taking better care of myself and my ...

I notice some joy about the thought of nature doing it's nature things.

There are natural laws because without them we would live in a very different world...hehe

And so human life will go forward in the way that it does because that's what human life does. What you said about the conditions ...

Seeing that, are you separate from life happening? Are you apart from aliveness?
Is it possible to be separate from life happening?
there isn't a separateness and I'm not apart from the aliveness.... life is all happening at once there is no separation.

Tell me how you see free will and choice ...

Do you need to label sensations anything in order to be present?
The sensations need names in order to communicate about them.
So once we add a name we muddle it... or rather we crystalize it in a way. Crystalizing the flow of life doesn't work...it's can't be done. but we do it to be able to talk ...

Word body is a concept. An umbrella word to point to all these felt sensations.
right! it's a name for something. Sensation happens and we call it body. Like a shiver happens and we say "I feel a shiver in my body" but really, shiver just happens and then we add meaning or labels.

Now is body ...

Where is a person necessary?
a person is not necessary for any of it. A physical body, yes. That's there and it's taking in information, and all that scientific cellular stuff. But there's no do-er. It's an organism. The organism is necessary for the experience but the person is not.

What is ...

Is there a person experiencing taste?
Is there a need for a story about the person while experiencing taste?

And take a look here- there is awareness of taste, there is experiencing taste, there is tasting, sweet, knowing of taste, I am aware of tasting sweet, the taste is known by awareness ...

b]Have a look here, perhaps the person is also part of the flow?[/b]
Yes! exactly. it's like one part of a whole, but not a separate part.


Take a look at a tree. Is life happening to a tree or as a tree? Is tree separate from aliveness? Or is tree a name for the form that aliveness takes? Can ...

There is a fundamental sense of being. Sense of existing, knowing that you are. Always here. This simple knowing that I am. Right? Can you deny that?
definitely a sense of existing. most definitely a felt sense. I am here right now and there's no denying that.

And there is life happening as ...