Does my post makes sense, or am I lost in stories again?

But there is a difference between 'emotional freedom', and the person who wants to be free and believes that he is not free.


I see the difference! The one that wants to be free is the fictional character, the me. He(It, I...) cannot be found in reality. I can find "him" only in the story of me ...

Hello Vivien, firstly I'd like to express my gratitude for your time with me. Big Thank you and a virtual hug!

So I intentionally wasn't quick to answer, because I wanted your words to sink in with me.


My words might not make sense, but what you had is an experience. All experiences are ...

seeing it in a daily life is not a different state to be in. It's very ordinary. Nothing special.

So what is this whole forum all about then!? Like having a big forum just to tell people the sky is blue. And people sign up an you tell them - go ouside and see if the sky is blue. And peole do it ...

Thank you for your replies.
Actually thank you!


Do you expect that seeing no self would mean that there is no more sense of self present?

Well to be fair even when direct looking there is some sense of self, some "observer" just to name it somehow.


Does the sense of self needs to be gone ...

Is there a thinker?
Its nowhere to be found in direct experiance(DE)! Only cognition of thoughts. In thoughts there is still a concept of "I'm the thinker", but its doesn't sound so true anymore. And I can foresee your question - Doesn't sound true to whom? :) Its just another thought thinked by ...

Please spend a few more days, and really do the exercises I gave you. Please reply to those questions.

Hello Vivien! Hope you are doing great! Theese "few more days" turned into an year almost :) Sorry for that, but there was no significant change in perseption here, so it was pointless to waste ...

Hi Vivien,
I haven't thanked you lately, so THANK YOU for what you are doing, its really appreciated!

So I intentionally delayed this answer, because I really tried to take this suggestions in, not just answer intellectually. There is no point using intellect here, I see that. But without intellect ...

Hi Vivien,
I've read this blogpost before, but I did it again now. I thought I know perfectly the concept about how the baby has pure experience for some time and then develops ego. But nevertheless I saw some new things. Like previously I was fully aware conceptually that I wear pink glasses, but ...

I was rereading all of our previous posts, from the begging of this thread. And I noticed something very alarming! All my answers are intellectual. You constantly try to make me answer from direct experience and i constantly steer away. It turns out its so hard for me to answer directly, like its ...

I just wanted to add, that I think this "watcher" perspective is still in the realm of the person its like "I" looking at "I"
I see its not the real deal, but is at least helpful as an exercise? Because its the best I am capable of right now.

Hi Viven,
So during the weekend I was home, and I tried to really dig deep into meditation, the hands exercise and direct experience.

There seems to be two layers here. One is the usual everyday state of I being the persona with all of its wants, lacks, sense of having free will and so on. The ...

Hi Viven,
So during the weekend I was home, and I tried to really dig deep into meditation and direct experience. There seems to be two layers here. One is the usual everyday state of I being the persona with all of its wants, lacks, sense of having free will and so on. The other thing I see is ...

There is life. Yes. But is there someone living life?
Is there someone separate from life having it? Or there is just life?

By implication the one "having" life must be outside of life. As far as I know, there is nothing outside of life. So it must be Noone having life. And even that's some kind ...

When you say “It happens to me” – what do you refer to with the word ‘me’?

WHERE is the ‘me’ that it happens to?
Show it to me.


Well its the one who is writing this posts. Its the one who can see the breathing in the body happens by itself most of the time, but if I(Me) decide I can make it go ...