Dear Jon.
I did not find any time or experience of time. Just like I did not find any self.
Your question: was there ever any self? Is not answerable directly. Because the story of the self creates time, not the other way round. No story, no time.
Both yes and no are 'wrong' answeres to the question ...

Dear Jon.
Time has to be caught in the act.
"I" have already realized by experience that space and matter are not what they seem. They are some kind of dough or soup, really.
"I" am waiting for a similar experience with time.
There might be nothing to chat about in theory.
Time has sth to do with ...

Dear Jon.
Thank you very much. You have been a beacon to my initial confusions of reorientation.
There is still some time needed to delve into the time paradox.
I will reply to admin when the time comes. If things develop as fast as they have been recently, this moment could come sooner than later ...

Dear Jon.
Good questions you guys and gals have.
Not easy to put into words, but it is a good exercise.
I try to answer them from my experience of the last 7 months, especially the last 2 months.

1. There is no true self. There is a personality that feels real, yet it is not the self. There is no ...

Dear Jon.
Great. Thank you.
No questions presently.
Except the one with assisting someone in health or spiritual welfare/ progress.
I know it works, but it is a paradox. There is no reason it should work and many reason it should not.
Best wishes, R

Dear Jon.
How is it possible to assist some one to crash the gate or to find the gate, or whatever this site attempts? What does it attempt?
Passing through does happen or does not happen.
Is this not just ego again trying to accelerate this?
All this does not make sense to anyone intellectually ...

Dear Jon.
In a discussiin with my wife it came to me that my problem with time is not really a problem, but a crutch.
Time helps the personality to keep things together.
For the 'me'.
What is really happening is disintegration. Space and time are flying away from me. Like in the big bang image.
This ...

Time is context.

Dear Jon.
First question, who or what am I?
No idea. I would like to write I feel one with all, but I don't. I do feel less separate, but the experience of individuality has not been replaced with anything yet. This seems to be a phase of deconstruction.
Second question, the struggle with time.
It ...

Dear Jon.
Thank you for sharing.
Either there is a strugle with time or it is not a 100% clear that I am not an existing entity.
Time makes it appear real sometimes.
If I am not an entity existing, who or what am I?
Good question to mull over.
Thanx. R

Dear Jon.
It is again the unemployed ego trying to invent a story with itself at its center.
It doesn't matter if the ego is there or here ot gone.
I guess there is some getting used to having no more drive or structure. Like getting retired.
Best regards, Ramon

That said...
The I/self/personality/ego is still there. Unchanged.
There is less or no identification with it. But it is still there, unchanged.
There is no wisdom, no liberation, no unleashing of the personality.
I read that there is a second step of awakening, after disidentification. That there ...

Dear Jon.
I wouldn't say nothing but everything.
It is like a tree having roots now.
Things are simultaneously more and less real.
I think and feel less, often the mind is blank. Get upset very rarely and if then only for seconds. There is more compassion.
Before there was always the feeling that ...

Dear Jon.
Yes. I noticed the language limitation.
Although it differs a bit between languages.
When I studied anthropological linguistics 20 years ago I was told that there are languages that dont need an object or subject. There are apparantly american first nation languages that say "raining ...

Dear Jon.
Merry Christmas.
How do things happen?
The answer that came was: an endless circle.
I watched the new series The Witcher the last days and when asked if he believed in destiny the protagonist answeres: "Destiny helps people believe there is an order to this horseshit. There isn't."
Before ...