Thank you Vivien for all your guidance! It’s soooo....not what I thought it would be. I would like to keep in touch here on this forum maybe from time to time if that’s ok. I’ve never been a Facebooker but I appreciate the fact that there are other people out there interested in this sort of thing ...

No worries, I look forward to hearing from you.

Thanks

Adam

In addition....I can also say that there no longer feels to be a center here. There is just a sense of a space with phenomena occurring in that which are not me. I am also not the space. There seems to be nothing personal in any of it.

Hi Vivien, I will do my best to answer these questions
1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?
There is no seperate entity. The “I” or “me” exists only as concepts or thoughts. In that way the “I” and “me” are also part of life ...

Hi Vivien,
What would you say to this now?

Is there anything that is not completely clear and you would like to look at?

Do you have any doubt?

Is there I to awaken?
To my original request in that conversation....I would say that it is seen now, that what I was asking was really just an idea ...

Hi Vivien,

Please observe what is happening in your everyday life.

Is there anything that is not on automatic?

Is there control over anything?

Is there anything separate from life?

There is only automatic. Things are happening, decisions are being made and direction being taken but no one ...

Even the thoughts utilized in typing the message to you are arising on their own with no help or energy from an entity or a “me”. Me only exists in thoughts about it. No real me exists. There is only space and all phenomena occurring of which I have no explanation for. I can’t say it feels the way I ...

Hey Vivien, I really took some time to let things sink in
Is there anything separate from life, being outside of what is happening, looking at it?
Is there an experiencer + the experienced?

To see this, listen to the sounds, is there a hearer here and sound there? Or there is only the sound?
In ...

There is no one to be separate from experience. There is only experience as it is. It is not happening to anyone. It IS! Can’t be described! Can’t be understood! I feel like a shift of some kind occurred some time ago but again how does one know Vivien?

Hey Vivien, I just realized that I am not sure what is meant by “separation”. I’m really not sure how to describe what is felt here. All I can say is that there is only whatever is arising.

Vivien,
I feel as though there is “nothing” being aware of sensations. Sensations just seem to arise out of “nothing”

Is there a feeler of sensations separate from the sensations?

Is there a feeling of separation?

There is no feeler that is separate from sensation. There is only sensation. The only thing I feel to be separate is a sense of physical separateness in that the physical body is not the same as say ...

Is that an intellectual understanding, or a visceral one?
I would have to say it’s visceral. There is the sensation but it’s like it arises in nothingness. Thoughts about it arise but in what feels like a nothingness. My first inclination to your question was to answer....I don’t know if I’m ...

Hey Vivien,

Are you feeling those sensations? Where is the ‘you’ feeling it?

The sensations are present but there is no one apart from the sensation. There is only the sensation.

Thanks, I’m doing my best not to think about it and instead just to look

Is there an ‘I’ or a looker/seer there?
What do you find?
There is no real tangible thing called “I”. There is the thought “I”. The word “I” exists. I feel that it is meant to point to a “looker”. I see no “looker”. I see ...