Okay. Once again, thank you very much Vivien for your guidance. :)

Hi Vivien,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?
No. There are only thoughts, colors, sounds and sensations and aware-ing of them. Nothing separate from these. It has always been like this.

2) Explain in detail what the ...

Hi Vivien,

Sorry that I couldn’t reply yesterday, it was quite a hectic day.

But is it TOTALLY clear that there is neither sensation without the knowing or aware-ing of them, nor knowing / aware-ing without the sensation? So these are not 2 phenomena, but rather one?
Yes. Awareness without the ...

Hi Vivien,

There has never ever been a chooser. So just by seeing that there has none, what bodily effect should appear?
Does a bodily effect is needed in order to see that there is no chooser?

Does seeing that there is no self would require a change in sensation?
Does a change in sensation is ...

Hi Vivien,

What does a thought really know about sensation?
Do the thoughts know anything about sensations?
DE: After sensations, sometimes there appear thoughts that contain a label of the sensations. There is thought that this is how sensations are known by thoughts.

Is there anything linking ...

Hi Vivien,

Can you see this? Or do you think that there are more consequences to this?
You’re right about the consequences. There is a thought that ”seeing” this should have a consequence in the form of a bodily effect that clearly separates intellectual understanding (no real bodily effect) from ...

Hi Vivien,

Is this clear?
Yes, that is clear. ”Now” as a knowing of sensations is a thought about the experience.

Has it been seen that there has never been an ‘I’ that could control or own life or anything?
This thought has appeared.

Is there any chooser or decider of any kind?
There still ...

Hi Vivien,

Is there anything you would like to investigate and we haven’t covered or something that is not totally clear?
In my daily life, ”I keep looking” at whatever we have discussed earlier. At this point, I can’t think of anything in particular. Whenever I feel ”a sense of I”, the thought ...

Hi Vivien,

But what are the eyes in the actual experience?
Are there anything to the eyes other than sensations and images (of ‘eyes’)?
No. In DE, eyes and eye movements are associated only with sensations, thoughts (of eyes).

Can sight / mental image come from a sensation?
Seeing of sights ...

Now, repeat this with a sensation. Try your best to separate them. So?
How does a sensation without aware-ing looks like?
Is there such thing as sensation without the knowing of it? – really look for it, not just think
How does awareness look like when it’s separated from the sensation?
In DE ...

Hi Vivien,

Just as there is hearing/sound going on, but is there an independent hearer doing the hearing of a sound?
Sensation/sensing is going on, but is there a feeler doing the feeling of the sensation?
Is there a taster of the taste?
Is there a smeller of a smell?
Is there a thinker of a ...

Hi Vivien,

Does this belief has come up for you “I = awareness”?
Or the belief that there is a stand-alone independent awareness / consciousness that is aware of what is going on?
Yes, this has indeed come up as a thought... Especially in the form of ”knowing that there are sounds”, ”knowing that ...

Hi Vivien,

So, could you see that all the negative emotions felt very similar, contracted and unpleasant?
And only the labels make them seemingly different?
Yes, there’s tension involved with these. Location and intensity may change but there is contraction.


So, could you see that all the ...

Hi Vivien,

“The thought ‘I’ organizes experience” – could you please say a bit more about this? What do you mean by ‘thought organizes the experience’?
That the thought content ”I” binds the disparate sensations, colors, sounds to a coherent and continuous moment of perception. That ”these ...

Hi Vivien,

Does the pure sensation itself suggest in any way that the hand is doing the touching?
No.

Does the pure sensation itself suggest in any way that there is a hand (subject) that touching the table (object), or is there only touching?
No. There are only sensations that fluctuate ...