OK, great! Thank you Vivien.

Hello Vivien

What is it that is not looking?
No thoughts arise saying, 'look, look at how things really are in your experience'

What is it that could be fully aware or not?
I have seen that there is no awareness as such. So this is also thoughts about being aware. Thoughts noticing the ...

Hi Vivien

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?

No there isn't and there never was one.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it ...

Thank you Vivien. Yes I was actually doing this looking to find the 'me' in my morning meditation today. And of course as soon as I zoom in on that area where the 'I' seems to reside, it turns out not to be there. Only sensations, as you say.
There are two areas where 'Agi' feels most prevalent. In ...

Dear Vivien

Here are my replies to your questions.

Has it been seen that there has never been an ‘I’ that could control or own life or anything?
Yes!

Is there any chooser or decider of any kind? Is there an ‘experiencer’? Is there a ‘thinker’?
No chooser, no thinker, no experiencer.

Is ...

Dear Vivien

So actually, there is no difference between past, present or future thoughts (or images) since all appear now. In AE there is no difference between them, since all of the only the AE of thoughts. And only other thoughts comment and says that this or that is a memory or it’s a fantasy ...

Hi Vivien

What is memory exactly? What is the memory ‘made of’?
In the memories that I've looked at, it was mostly images. Visual images from the 'past'. I guess we can also consider the music playing inside my head 'memories'. So sounds too.

WHEN does the memory appear?
I'm not sure I ...

Dear Vivien

If there is a sense of blank then there is already the awareness of blankness, isn’t it? If there is a sense of emptiness, there is already the knowing of emptiness, isn’t it?

Yes. This is what I meant by saying that I noticed that there was a thought about being aware.

Can there ...

Dear Vivien

Interesting looking today! And also I have spoken to a friend who has also done LU and that was very good.

So the identification with the body and the senses (feeler, hearer, thinker, etc.) is replaced with a subtle form of identification, “I am that which is aware”…. So there is ...

Dear Vivien

So just to clarify, the main difficulty was separating the labels ‘pleasant’ and ‘unpleasant’ from the sensation, but it was much easier to see with emotional labels like ‘sorrow’, ‘sadness’, ‘suffering’, right?

Yes, that's what I meant.

I have studied and worked with vedana in my ...

Dear Vivien

I didn't find investigating emotions easy. I bring up an emotion and there is a bodily component, true, but when I start examining it, like a soap bubbles it disappears very quickly.
Also, I have found it hard to separate the physical sensation from the labels 'pleasant' and ...

Dear Vivien

Have you watched the video about the experiment showing that the correlation between sensations and images are just a fabrication?

Yes I did. It only confirmed my own findings in the exercises.

How is it known that there was a sound + hearing? Is there a separate sound + a ...

Hello Vivien

This was a fascinating though pretty difficult exercise. I spent my whole morning meditation 'looking at' the sounds. And not even sure what I found!

In 'hearing' can anything be found other than 'what can be heard'?
No.

Can what is doing the hearing be found? Or is there only ...

Hello Vivien

LU 13 June

Have you ever pondered about that you can never ever be able to see your head directly? Without a mirror, we would never be able to know how our face, eyes, head look like. And we treat the image of the head in the mirror as a proof of how our faces look like. But actually ...

Good morning,
Here's the continuation of last night's exercise.
So you can repeat this with all of the body parts below, one-by-one.
- feet
- legs
- arms
- belly
- chest
- head (looking into the mirror)

What do you find?

I have found that while last night's experience was very striking and ...