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by camelrider
Sun Apr 14, 2019 10:39 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
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Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

Hello,
You are confirmed, and with much delight. You have passed the gateless gate.
Thank you for everything! This whole journey been absolutely wonderful. Yep I can see the private message.

Goodbye :)

Much love,
by camelrider
Sat Apr 13, 2019 10:43 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
Replies: 82
Views: 15696

Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

Hi,

Although belief in "I" as agent, controller, thinker, observer are gone (probably). Maybe there is still a belief in I as some sort of permanent stable identity with opinions, beliefs and qualities, i.e good, bad, smart, dumb. There is some "resistance", and bodily sensations around "important ...
by camelrider
Sat Apr 13, 2019 10:34 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
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Views: 15696

Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

How does this story seem something called "useful?"


Oh no, I predicted this would happen :(. hahaha. Its only useful, because I think it is. AND just to be clear I'm using I because this is the language we have, you can replace them with, thoughts labeled prediction appear, thoughts of "I think ...
by camelrider
Sat Apr 13, 2019 12:37 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
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Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

Hi,

Are you trying to say that "intention" is a Direct Experience?

My bad. I meant that there is only a thought labeled intention. I mentioned it in the beginning of the answer but forgot to write it in the diagram bit. In DE, it is only a thought labelled intention, that is if it even appears ...
by camelrider
Fri Apr 12, 2019 5:51 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
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Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

On # 5, I don't see any mention of "intention." What is intention? How does it work? And please give an example from experience.

Intention is just like choice, a thought that is labelled intention. Example: There are times when I "intend" to stop a bad habit. All that is is a thought "I'm going ...
by camelrider
Fri Apr 12, 2019 1:57 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
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Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

Good morning :),

PS - where is the "I"who has any kind of writing that has a dramatic flair?

You caught "me" there ;)

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No. Its not a real entity. There's only a story about it. Just ...
by camelrider
Fri Apr 12, 2019 12:24 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
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Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

Hello,

There is only now :). My manic laughing has decreasing considerably. This new way of being is quickly becoming very comfortable and life seems to be going back to normal. The changes are interesting. Attachment to a lot of spiritual stories/ideas are dropping. I'm really glad that I've only ...
by camelrider
Thu Apr 11, 2019 9:24 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
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Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

Hello :)

Of course. For one thing, review the ones that were what thought called "difficult" until you see through that. It is always Now. One idea is to watch a clock (analog or digital - won't matter). Even though the image does something, is the Actual Experience changing? Or is it always Now ...
by camelrider
Thu Apr 11, 2019 3:17 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
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Views: 15696

Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

Hiya,

Oh my goodness, I can't stop laughing.I went to the park today, and it was absolutely stunning. Everything is perfect...

But is there an experience of the ’now’ moving along the line of time?

No. Now doesn't move. Its only ever now.

Any experience of one ‘moment’ giving way to the next ...
by camelrider
Thu Apr 11, 2019 10:30 am
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
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Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

Hi :)

This whole thing is so funny, so incredibly funny. "I"'ve been laughing like a madman for the last 3 days. Such a ridiculous thing to believe. Also, I understand why we use I and me in language now, its much harder to explain experience otherwise. Everything needs to be said in the passive ...
by camelrider
Wed Apr 10, 2019 9:43 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
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Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

Hi,

I have been looking all day. All there is is: Seeing, hearing, feeling, etc.. Just a Knowing, an experiencing of a single moment. There is nothing else.

Well, as always, LOOK. What is found? Does sense of self have a location that you can find? Or only thought says so?

No, sense of self ...
by camelrider
Wed Apr 10, 2019 5:53 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
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Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

Hi,

That's a beautiful analogy. Except that I don't think there's a big brother doing the controlling. It seems to be far more mysterious then we know. Best I can do is it just happens.

Thank you. Indeed, there doesn't even seem to be a big brother. Just the game playing.

Exactly how would a ...
by camelrider
Wed Apr 10, 2019 12:55 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
Replies: 82
Views: 15696

Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

Hiya,

I've had a strange experience over the last 2 days. I randomly started to notice my thoughts, choices and body movements a lot more. I noticed that thoughts appear, choices are made, activities are done and there isn't a controller to be found. Then the whole thing just felt ridiculous. The ...
by camelrider
Tue Apr 09, 2019 4:55 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
Replies: 82
Views: 15696

Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

Hiya,

In step 1 when thinking about their respective qualities, did you ‘choose’ the qualities? Or did they kind of appear by themselves? If some preferences manifested, did you ‘choose’ these preferences? Or did they just pop up by themselves?

In step 1, I was just waiting for the thoughts to ...
by camelrider
Sun Apr 07, 2019 9:39 pm
Forum: ARCHIVES
Topic: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncovering
Replies: 82
Views: 15696

Re: Feeling a lot of cognitive dissonance around my beliefs relating to self. Would really appreciate some help uncoveri

Hello,

Ahh this was exercise was great. I actually started doing exercises like this one spontaneously about 2 weeks ago, moving my fingers around, typing, cooking, running and walking while observing. It's so strange to notice how the body just moves. very fun though :) Like a watching a wild ...

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