Hi Ve

Thanks so much for all your time, help, thoughts and guidance. It has been greatly appreciated :-)

Much love xxxx

Jenny aka Ecalpemos (Someplace)

Hi Ve

It is one whole flow that includes everything.

Love Ecalpemos

Hi Ve

another message! I'm posting as it unfolds...

Things are feeling clearer now.

It seems that I had got myself tangled up with all the assertions - you are not your body, you are not your thoughts etc.
But on looking it appears that I am as much my body as I am anything else that's arising ...

Hi Ve

I went to sit in the park this morning, just watching and sitting. There's been a space around thoughts lately, and a subtle knowing that I'm not the body or the thoughts. Then there was a realisation - If I'm not the body or the thoughts, then what am I? What's left? All there was was the ...

Hi Ve


Do you have a clear experience of separation when looking in direct experience?


A. No, I don't. I realise that I am waiting for the experience of 'oneness' which I've read about from other people! When I look it's clear that nothing is separate or apart from the rest, and that everything ...

Hi Ve

I realise I didn't answer this question...


Any state by definition is changing. Are you looking for the changing or the unchanging?


A. I am looking for a permanent shift in perspective. A clear experiencing of oneness. I imagine that within that things will be constantly changing, but ...

Hi Ve


5) a) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control.


Decision is a thought, a preference. We say that ‘I made a decision’, but on closer inspection that’s not what happens, there is no separate little person doing a process called ‘deciding’. There are thoughts and ...

Hi Ve

I've been focussing on this a lot lately, there are thoughts that say I'm not there yet, that there is another state to achieve, and that may be so, but I will answer the questions as is experienced now.

Recently it has become clear to me that thought is commentary, not direct experiencing ...

Hi Ve

How is it to be with those thoughts? Are there other thoughts that say "I don't want these thoughts / I want to get ride of them / there is some more work to do for them to dissapear"? Or is it more a "sseing was is"? Maybe with some curiosity?


A. I still have thoughts about wanting to ...

Hi Ve

I hope all is well with you? Here's an update...

I was away travelling and have returned a couple of weeks earlier than planned. Once I would have said 'I changed my mind', but it was clear that there was no I changing its mind, no deciding process as such. Simply the mind had different ...

Thanks Ve

Your guidance is much appreciated and helps me a lot. I'll be in touch again soon.


Love Ecalpemos.

Hi Ve

I've been reading through all my journalling notes. There was a quote from the LU book - "self-centred humans always feel like something is wrong with them." This is it. I feel like there's something 'wrong' - but I don't know what that even means. When I look for myself I can't find anything ...

Hi Ve

Thanks for your encouraging message :-)

I've read through all our conversations and whilst it all makes sense it somehow seems flat and dull now. It is just words on a screen. So I guess I'm somewhere else, though there is only here, of course ;-)

I've been feeling wretched and sick of ...

Hi Ve

I'm still here :-)

Currently travelling round France in campervan with dog. Was hoping that this time would give me space and solitude to focus on this, but it doesn't seem to be so. I know that is just an expectation, life simply flows. I feel like I've hit a wall with it and nothing makes ...

Hi Ve

I find I'm too much in my head with it again, so will step back and return to basics for a few days. I'm about to go travelling for a couple of months and internet access may be inconsistent, but I will be back in touch soon, and intend to use much of the time to focus on this.

Love ...