Hi Kay,

Since you don't know what is doing the looking, then what is it exactly that is choosing to, or is responsible "to look and realize what is true"?

No one choosing, it is just what is happening and thought claims that it is important and something that "I" need to do. Thank you for this ...

Hi Kay,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?

No there is not and never was.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience.
Describe it fully as you ...

Hi Kay,

How have you found reading your thread from the beginning and redoing some of the exercises?

It has been helpful and I'm grateful that it is there for me always to come back to.

I have had a couple of aha moments. There was this thought that if I am not doing anything, then who is the ...

Hi Kay,

There is an expectation here…what is it? That the idea of a 'self/me/I' will disappear completely?

Yes and that there is no more "my" problems.


What happened when you realised that Santa Claus was a just a character in a story? Did Santa disappear completely, did Christmas stop ...

Hi Kay,

What exactly is it that "feels" a memory thought is more "personal"?
It is an idea/a thought.

"Memory thought "feels" more "personal" is just another thought. When you replace that thought with "blahblahblah", what remains?
Just what is.
What exactly is it that "feels" a future ...

Hi Kay,

When you look at the word label 'GREEN', what is the actual experience?
Is the colour red experienced, or is the colour green experienced as the label suggests?
Do the labels have a one-to-one correspondence with 'reality'?
Or do the labels suggest something else other than what is here ...

Hi Kay,


But is there an experience that the 'now' is moving along the line of time?
Any experience of one 'moment' giving way to the next?
Any actual experience of one event following another?

There is only this what is "now". No experience of events following each other.

How fast is the ...

Hi Kay,

For few days I have felt like I am in this weird place. Many things I have thought I have known to be some way, turn out to be something I have ever imagined. Disorienting but freeing :) This is why I wanted to start this guidance.

Is experience 2D or 3D?
It was 2D.


Keep checking this ...

Hi Kay,

Now, go open your front door like it is in this picture and have a look. Is the open door actually taking up 'space' and is there 'space' between door and the wall behind the door?

There is an idea of space, but no actual experience of space. Just colour is known.

And does the ...

Hi Kay,

If, when when eyes are open, the AE of skin is still thought. Thought points to colour and labels it 'skin'. However, what is appearing is AE of colour and not AE of skin, so the AE of 'skin' is thought.
Is this clear?

Quite clear.

How is it known that there are lines where colour ...

Hi Kay,

I thought that you forgot me ;) But now I know to ask earlier if your response doesn't show up the same day.

What is the AE of skin?
Thought and when eyes are open also color.

Where is the dividing line between the colour labelled 'body' and the colour labelled 'chair'?
Where is the ...

Hi Kay,

Can it be known how tall the body is?
When eyes closed there is no way to know. When walking eyes open there was this measuring the place where the looking happens to the things seen to define the height of the "body". But still no actual experience how tall the body is.
Does the body ...

Hi Kay,

Where is this "me" that can focus or pay attention? You did the exercise on looking left, right and straight ahead to see if you had any choice in what you are aware of. How is intention and focus any different? Is there a 'you' that can control what appears/happens?

No "me" to focus and ...

Hi Kay,

Seems = thought….I want you to look and not think. So check again. Do the head turning exercise again and see if you can find a head turning, or is there simply sensation with a thought appearing that it is a head? Can you actually see a 'head' turning even?. Let me know what you find ...

Hi Kay,

"It feels like something is in the way" is simply a thought. Can you actually find anything in the way? Can colour, thought, sound, sensation etc get in the way?

Cannot find anything in the way. Just a thought. It is not possible for anything to be in the way because everything just is ...