Hi F,

You mentioned 'awareness' in your answers and I'd like to ask:

Is this awareness you talk about something separate from all the rest?

Noticing happens - how do you know awareness is what notices?

Does awareness have a shape, a location, a weight? Can you point to this awareness ...

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?


No. If there is something separate from this, I cannot know it, because all I know is this. If something were separate from this, how would I know it?

All the separate self "is" is ...

Hi F,

Thanks for your post.

I don't feel confused anymore. It's just so simple and profound.



I would like to as you a series of six questions, if you're interested? It's not a test but these questions can sometimes reveal more. Please let me know if you'd me to send them to you?

All best ...

hi,

You have written a lot. And a lot of it makes sense.

Are there any remaining doubts, niggles or standing issues to do with seeing that there is no separate self?

Does anything need to be different? if so, what?


Jon


You know what, Jon? It's all pretty good. There is a lot of curiosity ...

I want to add this, because something happened yesterday that forced me to think about morality and responsibility.

So, I am not in control of arisings here. Because there is no apparent cause, I am thus not responsible for whatever thoughts arise. So, a thought about doing a certain something ...

There is a lot of fear here, specifically in social situations. There is also a lot of desire to be "free" around people, to be able to act without censoring, just feel natural among people. This seems worth exploring.

So, what is fear?

Fear feels like wanting to get away from what's happening ...

We have not mentioned things like choice, decisions, or free will. How do things happen? You may wish to look at these?


Hmm. Well, let me try to keep this simple.

Who is writing this?

There is no experience of "pre-thought" here. As in, there is no thinking about thinking before thinking ...

Duality / relativity then are just means for the absolute to communicate with itself without being bogged down in the actual impossibility of communicating this.

One question: I understand there's no seer here, but have never had the "headless way" experience. It still feels like I'm seeing from something the behind the eyes, centre of head apparent seat of self.


I decided to look into this, because, well, just because. No apparent cause, really, ha ...

What if seeking pops up from time to time?


I'm just enjoying it while it's here. I'm sure there will be plenty of time when it's not present, so why rush towards that.

One question: I understand there's no seer here, but have never had the "headless way" experience. It still feels like I'm ...

There was also the feeling last night of, So this is it, eh? Almost like, Wow, this is bullshit! All this seeking and just THIS is it? A peaceful feeling, although with a tinge of regret that I won't be able to fly or leap over tall buildings..

Has there been any change in your feelings about the 'something here doesn't feel awake'? Or is the seeking more still bugging?

It seems like there is some realizing that whatever is here is beautiful in whatever form it arises. Seeing seeking as another feeling to be felt allows it to arise ...

Is there any control over when or if noticing labelling happens? Or noticing sensations?

Is it possible to prevent the thought 'I' from appearing?

No, it is as attention is. A mysterious roving of something. Sometimes there is noticing and sometimes not.

And no.... There is no way to prevent it ...

This feeling of 'I'. Look at it over the course of today and notice whenever it appears. If possible, make a note or two of the circumstances and write a brief account of how it was experienced.

Example #1:
At yoga last night, the teacher played a song "I" didn't like during corpse pose, and "I ...

Could thoughts about seeking and awakeness be prevented from appearing?

Who or what could do the preventing?

Nothing.

It still feels like "I" have to accept this.... But I know there's nothing here to accept nothing can be done about nothing.