Yes, there is awakeness.
Have a look whether this awakeness belongs to anyone or anything.
Have a look whether there is a something or a someone to be found within this awakeness being responsible for it.

Yes, actually this is the trap for me. I don’t mean awakeness as in ‘not asleep’ but rather ...

. Can such a "something" be seen in present experience?

In one way there is sort of a sense of something. But since it’s the thing doing the observing, it’s hard to conceptualize observing it. It is not present in direct experience as far as I can tell. Unless I’m not seeing it correctly.

Does ...

. An old oaktree is a very special natural appearance, agree?
Is there a separate self within the tree, which makes it special?
Clearly not.
Same goes for the natural appearance called "human".


It has taken me a bit to look at this, I’m still looking. I think I see the oak tree with its own ...

What is being protected?
What's being protected is the fact, that the separate self is illusory to begin with!

This is where the present resistance is coming from.
It'll be all right!

I think what is being protected is maybe the body, from pain or death? Since I don’t know yet what’s behind the ...

When there is a story about "this sensation is anxiety".
Do you believe it?
Or do you not believe it?

If I can separate out the thought (story) from the sensation, I can just see it as sensation and not believe the story, or not believe it so readily. When I am overwhelmed by it, it is more ...

Is that true?

Only when I’m not looking directly at sensation only. Then it is my label for the experience of combined thought with those particular sensations.

When I am looking only at sensation, there are just sensations in a field. There is a thought that goes along with the particular ...

Is it possible to drop all these expectations?

It’s possible to try. Definitely.

Expectations come from comparison. Comparison to awakening-stories. Yes they do come from comparison to stories and also to glimmers that I have had.

Only look at this very present experience and ONLY at how ...

Can we take a few steps back and restart from an earlier point?

Sure!

Thank you.

Could you please write down the expectations, that are still in place?
These are the very hindrance of seeing this utter simplicity.

Yes. There are expectations of feeling something ‘better’ than I now feel. I ...

See the first post send a minute ago -
As a point of clarification- if I perceive something as a visual DE I do not have the experience of using any working memory or thought.
It is just sense perception. In this case visual. It is neutral and meaningless. It or “I” feel alien and lost. Is this ...

It is a lot of work to solidify and cement.
Again, NO! :-)
This effort will lead nowhere!.

You are misunderstanding me. I was agreeing with you on your previous statement that it is a lot of work. NOT reasserting that I was still attempting it. I was reasserting that I would cease trying to ...

What we are aiming at here is zero distance. What does one have to do to reach zero distance?
That's right. Nothing at all.

I think I have felt this a few times. I did nothing and it came by itself, as you have said. Mostly when I do nothing though it doesn’t come. I am going to relax and let it ...

it brings back my question of boundaries from last week
So is this still a thing?


It seems initially a bit different. I’m trying to get it to completely cement. I’m going to try to put it into words in hopes of solidifying it.

If all I can know are things in direct experience, including ...

Thoughts are experienced. They are part of direct experience.
What is NOT part of direct experience is the content of thoughts.
When there is a thought about a candle, then the thought "candle" is direct experience.
It is right there, it can be observed. When is NOT direct experience, is "The ...

protect what exactly?
What does this "myself" point to?


This “myself” is just a group of thoughts and sensations that have be labeled to be “me”

Is there a difference in the experience of the seen, the heard, the sensed and thought?


There seems to be a more “real” quality to the seen, heard ...

On the football. I may need to do it over several times. Interestingly the link you attached is blocked in the US from copyright laws. I tried watching US football clips. I don’t understand the game that much, so it may be a perfect one to study.

Once the first minute is completed, now watch ...