Please describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How does it work? What are you responsible for? Please also give examples from experience.

Decision, intention, free will, choice and control are all illusions that vanish once the illusion of a separate ...

What pushed me over was looking at "conditioning" and "attachment". Both are concepts, and while they might symbolize some approximate process in reality, there is nobody in reality that could be conditioned or attached.

In addition to looking through language, looking in a non-verbal way was ...

Haha. Yes . When I said "not so much", I meant, there is nobody to seek anymore. There is nothingness, there is no separation, no here or there. What would be sought? Who would seek?

Dropping all comparison. Just looking at how things are unfolding in direct experience.

In reality, in direct experience, there is nothing that is actually conditioned.

Anxieties do not belong to anybody or anything. There is nobody who is anxious.

Yes. There is story about the attachments ...

The past three days have been intense. Tuesday began with a long period of confusion and dissociation. Not really wanting to do anything, apathy, doubt about the self-enquiry process. That evening something shifted, the lack of separation between self and others became abundantly clear, and a period ...

The illusion of the separate self begins with language. We have words for "I', "me", "myself" because they are useful in conversation. Most cultures also spread the notion that everyone is an individual with with an essential separate nature. For this person, the sense of a separate self evolved ...

There is no separate self, here, there or anywhere. All aspects of experience are coming from nowhere, going nowhere. Sensations are arising, awareness is awarenessing, feelings are feeling, the body moves. Thoughts are thinking. There is no experiencer, only the process of experiencing itself ...

When I see "I am not" , there is nothingness, empty space. A sense of openness, freedom, intimacy. Also, there is no need for meditation. There's nobody there trying to get / become better. At any of the other sports for that matter, either. ;)

Haha. There is neither an "I" or a thing called mind which can be thanked. There is neither the thanker or the thanked. What a useless interaction !

There are no two entities. Both are constructs. I guess it was a game of sorts. It did help ease a sense of tension in the head.

I am neither. "I" is ...

Things are a little upside down. Haha. Seeing no-self is not about bliss, or about being anything in particular really, although bliss is not excluded. Looking in the mirror, the face and body seem foreign.

I returned to the town with the yoga school and attended meditation this morning. When I ...

--What exactly is supposed to be transformed?

There is no self to be transformed. This personal development project is just a way of holding on to the belief that such a self can exist.

--Deepening the connection with what exactly?

Well, there isn't a self there to connect with deeper. I suppose ...

Hello,

It's been a while! Writing from the mountains of Oaxaca now. Still engaging in the self-inquiry process, reading the Liberation Unleashed book. Life is a flux. Recently, during a meditation retreat at Hridaya Yoga Center, I saw deeper into the process of creating drama around the personality ...

The only question that remains is, when will the confusion around "self" abate?

There is seeing that there's nothing there to see one day, then identification the next day. I continue looking for a self. I'm not in a rush because I want to see the truth and not trick myself. But I also feel this ...

Everything is alright. Thanks for getting back to me.

There was never really a self steering life. There were only thoughts trying to amalgamate a self. Trying to define the self as this or that, trying to believe in those thoughts and then make decisions based on those viewpoints. All a ...

It feels like just an emptiness, an open space.

Sometimes there is identification, worrying about image, trying to manage reality. Other times there is no separation and life just flows. I'm a violinist, and today I played the violin for what felt like the first time in my whole life. There was no ...