I'm fine, thank you, Ilona. It has been interesting journey, and i want to thank you for doing this!
Hugs:)

Hi Ilona :)

It is clear that there is no me or I, no separate self. The word I is useful because we people need to discuss about things and so on. I have this body and senses to feel this world, live this life. They are true. But stories I used to believe are gone, they are stories not true ...

Hi Ilona,
I, me, self cannot influence on what is happening, because there is no me. What I ment was that things are happening without any forse, will, control etc.
So, nothing is in 'my power, because there is no me.

Yes, what I ment with empty shell is that feeling is happening, we can feel senses and feel this environment we are living in. We take care of ourselves , other people and all kind of stuff which belongs to this life we are living.
But, how can I explain, I have noticed in my life that when I try to ...

Sorry to hear about Andrei, I did not know about it. Of course you can continue. This dialogue has been very long, hope you have patience with me:) I have had many times feeling to stop this, but something makes me continue.

When talking about truth, only this moment, just now, can be seen as true. Even a happening one minute ago is past and can not be seen as a truth. It is already a belief, because many, many things and maybe people have influenced for that moment and all have their own opinions of the moment.

Same ...

1) No there isn't and never has been.

2) The illusion of separate self is a belief that people are separate from each other. That everyone has their own thoughts and minds and that people could control their lives and this world.
I cannot say for sure how it starts, but when I look small babys ...

Ok, thank you, Andrei

I have been watching last few days if I have doubts seeing threw the illusion. I have had couple of 'wow'-feelings already some time ago when I realized how it works when I believed in stories and thoughts. Can see now how the stories were created and how I had formed opinions over them and thought ...

There just somewhere becomes very scary emotion and when I look it, feel it, it goes away. I fase it, and try to feel what it tells me. Sometimes I manage to get an idea, what this emotion is, then its easier to see and let it go.
I feel quite sensitively other people, so have been thinking, could ...

Hi, last week I have just been and seen what's going on. I have noticed a lot of beliefs, stories or how should I name them. Some are very scary, even cannot see what they are and where they come from, just feel them and as you said 'cast light onto them'.
Anyhow, I have realized that lastly they ...

Well that I ment...I was writing down my answer on paper first. And while writing down I saw it wasn't true. Saw that illusion.
While working, doing all kind of stuff, it's harder for me to see illusions...

Still working this all. Writing helps a lot and with it I can see that that stuff I wrote is full of shit.
It's much easier to see all that lie which I have believed.
But as I said, it continues - will be back after a while...

That empty rabbit thing did wake me. First came feelings, I am not empty shell - it felt awful. Then it came sorrow, it was like chock. After those emotions I understood what you ment. Of course! I am an empty shell, there is only this cover, there is no me. Felt stupid. And after feeling stupid I ...

And straight experience which happens just now is true. F.e. if I see a dog just now, it is true. But when the dog runs away, and cannot see it, I can't say it is true anymore. Only this monent, what happens just now is true.