Hello fran
Thank you for your support .
I've been struggling a but since my surgery , just taking each day as it comes really .
I was diagnosed with three conditions about 18 months ago so it's been a bit of a journey really . Certainly much better than I was but it's now having to accept how ...

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Question 4
Think I was pushed into looking a little further by revisiting the direct experience
Having a guide who has the ability to see the barriers which hindered my ability to just 'look' and suggest excercises that enabled me to gain clarity that there has never been or ever will be an ...

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Question 1
There is no 'self , just life . 'I ' only exists because of years of previous beliefs . It has no existence within direct experience .
Very aware that I have held on to the identity of 'me' , guilty of never questioning or looking closely to what was really going on .
There can ...

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Did have a little sunshine this morning , but later dull and windy .
You so right , it is the thoughts that get carried away , especially when things appear a little tough .
Years of habit to break .
Still finding it difficult to describe sometimes in words .

Not really with it today ...

Good morning Fran
Healing is certainly needed , but a little frustrating when used to running around juggling everything and everything .
Think patience is possibly one of my weakness .

can you say without a shadow of a doubt , that you have seen through the illusion of self ?
Deffinatley , has ...

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Very late today , fell asleep on the sofa and have just woke up ....exhausting week
Wanted to check in before taking myself to bed .

when you see other 'people/individuals ',do you see separateness ?

Think I do , although there are times when I see closeness/ connectivness ...

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in direct experience ,what is the struggle ?
In direct experience there is no struggle .
It's the thoughts popping up that create a dialogue which then creates the feelings of confusion .

and what individual would that be?quote]
Other individuals ...is it then down to Inteligence , DNA ...

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I'm feeling a bit better in myself thank you , just very tired and in a lot of discomfort .
Been a long journey really ... but that another story .

is it clear now,not only isthere is no self , but no doer either
Yes I think it's at last sinking in .. no doer , no controller ect just ...

Evening Fran
It is amazing what is taken in without thinking or looking . Something that that is so natural but not encouraged enough within this world .

[Just go back to this one....check again with your eyes closed - no thought, just direct experience, sink into the sensation. Report again. Are ...

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I have no idea .... I think I must of had a blip with submitting as the iPad was updating as I'd written my nites in my little journal .
Never mind the joys of technology .

Thank you for requesting that I complete another excercise .

can you feel it without labelling it ?
Yes ...

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[quote Have a look at the second hand on a clock. It seems to be changing. But can you find 10 seconds ago in your direct experience? 5 seconds? 1 second? Keep noticing that change is always only a story about some experience "prior to this". But only *this* can be found. How could ...

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Not feeling to great at the moment , but each day is a little easier thank you .
Not sure what I did last week , as I was convinced that I responded to Tuesdays post .
Have to say , did have a blip with the updates on the I pad ...

Excercise .
Having repeated the excercise , could not ...

Hello fran
Sorry I haven't been logging in , but haven't felt too great following my spinal surgery on Wednesday.
Think I'm now feeling a little more human and ready to pick up where I left you .
Do hope that you are keeping well , and gave had a pleasant few days .
Helene x

Thank you fran
Look forward to checking in tomorrow
Helene x

Evening Fran

Thank you for supporting me to work through this .
It's correct , theories, learnt behaviours and scientific stuff distorts understanding at times .
To strip everything back to basics and just look and show curiosity is far more reliable than information that has been absorbed over ...