Thanks again Mark. It's been brilliant.
Sarala xx

Hi Mark
I knew I hadn't put that very well. Awareness is always bright and alive but perception of it sometimes can dull due to for instance tiredness or craving etc. It's not that there is anyone being responsible but ethics is still important. So continually noticing the effects of actions of body ...

OK thanks Mark. xx

Hi Mark
It's amazing that you are doing this from across the other side of the world. I have several friends who have family in Australia and I spent my honeymoon in Sidney and lived in NZ for 3 1/2 years in the seventies. My husband was a kiwi. I am divorced now.
Perhaps you don't give out your ...

Hi Mark
I feel clear about seeing there is no inherent self and feel open and happy about it and much lighter and having quite a surge of energy this morning. I'm not sure about a paradigm shift. It was a soft shift if I could put it like that. I suppose it takes people differently. It will be ...

Hi Mark
That was an interesting exercise. As I sat various ideas came to me. If they weren't very interesting there wasn't much energetic response. It was there and then faded away fairly quickly. Then when there was an interesting idea with more energy behind it lasted longer. But I was enjoying ...

Hi Mark
What you said about energetic reactions and contracted or expansive feelings set off an intuition that this was all the self was. I felt a calming, an opening, a relaxing, a knowing and a 'yes' sensation which wasn't exactly a thought, and I had that same burst of happiness that I had had ...

Hi Mark
Just back from a classical concert so feeling calm and chilled!

I had intended to meditate for a second time today but ran out of time, even though it doesn't exist!

I'll try and let go of the seeking. All those WANTS you mentioned are just 'me' craving something. There's also some worry ...

Hi Mark
I'm obviously frustrating you, sorry about that. I'm frustrating myself too!
I did feel a bit told off from your post. But I know, having read 'Gateless Gatecrashers' years ago, that guides can be quite confrontational. That's part of the intensity to get you to see clearly.

I haven't had ...

Hi Mark
There is just awareness! There is nothing to call an 'I' that can be found.

BUT I don't feel transformed by this seeing. (You used that word earlier as I have just reread some earlier posts).
I don't think I am looking for a particular state but I am looking for an experience of a ...

Hi Mark
I have listened to the talk twice. I really like Rupert Spira's stuff.
After the first time I felt opened up even more and a bit uplifted with a little surge of happiness. (My 'drawing' was more squiggles than dots!) I didn't get the uplift on the second time.

But I feel certain that I am ...

Hi Mark
I am struggling with "am I a person in a body?", even though I can see that awareness does not have any characteristics of a person!

Age, job, opinion, likes and dislikes and gender are all thoughts from the point of view of awareness.

I cannot find a thing or person that is being aware ...

Hi Mark
I meant to say yesterday that 'timeless' was one of the qualities of my experience in that exercise. I had it written in my notes that I jotted down after each try but somehow missed it out when writing to you as I was tired.

Also just to say that I have never believed that time exits. It ...

Hi Mark
When I do the exercise the chair disappears altogether. There is just pressure for a while.

Then the experience widens out, or I am just aware of more. The nature of the experience is open and spacious, timeless.

The experience is everywhere, all encompassing.

Its qualities are openness ...

Hi Mark
I have been quite busy today and am just back from my Buddhist chapter meeting. So I would like to take more time over your exercise and I also want to relook at the questions in your previous post again. I have done the exercise 3 times so far but feel too full up to write at length to you ...