Hi Xain,

Sorry for the late reply.

Some doubts where coming in 2 days ago that it was not fully seen through thats why I waited with responding.

Yesterday and today im seeing clearly that these doubts where only thoughts and the only "I" that was found, was in these thought storys.

I will send ...

Was there something specific you looked into or something that was mentioned during this guidance that made you fully realise? - Was there a specific moment where you 'tipped over' into realising 'no self'?

It was not as what I expected, the expectation was that there would be this aha moment and ...

So perhaps it's the idea that 'There no me to do anything', 'There's no me to achieve anything' - You are clinging more to 'one side' of the realisation (and there is nihilism or denial as a result).

Why not have some more happy considerations - There is no 'me' to stop things . . . and life might ...

Hi Xain,

I think im ready for the questions now, things are more clear now.

There is just one fear thats there today/yesterday. Fear of becoming lazy, no ambitions/goals which is causing some resistance to "fully let go".

I can mention more about the 'further things to examine' after the questions (and confirming you've seen 'no self' for certain).

Great!


But let's consider - What is an emotion?
My take on it would be that it is a sensation (which is not linked to an inherent 'I' or a 'body') coupled with ...

You are very welcome - But from what you were saying initially after reading 'gatecrashers', I could sense you were getting there - That things were becoming clear for you - All that you needed was a little pointing and a push.

Indeed seeing was starting to happen but it took quite some time ...

Xain! There is no seperate self found at all.

This is great. Indeed nothing changed but also so much!
There are still some thoughts about missing something or wanting to explore more, but no self behind it.

There is some hesitation but most of all excitement!

People around me dont really know ...

What real self made accomplishments, and will do so in the future?
Accomplishments are just ideas about past experiences.
There is no self that can accomplish something in the future.



What real self does strength training?
What real self could lose a passion for something?
There a thoughts ...

But is there someone . . . a real self that you are describing that is taking the thoughts seriously?
Or just a belief that there is one?

No its just a belief but nobody found.

Yes. Do you now know why that is?

Did a real self ever choose to come here for guidance?
Did a real self ever reply ...

Ok, so would 'I control thoughts' be anything other than a belief or an idea?


Yes indeed, no controller of thoughts to be found.

Can you find such an inherent self? Or just ideas about one?
Hah, just ideas about habits indeed. No person there thats making a habit or changing it.



Do you ...

Yes. I hope you understand that I am just describing an appearance and the reasons why that appearance would continuously occur. I am not suggesting that there is an inherent self here that is conditioned.

Yes i understand. Thanks for clarifying.



Well this would be the general assumption ...

I understand.
This is simply conditioning. We are so used to not examining what is going on, and not examining our own thoughts that we automatically 'go with what we've always assumed was right

Makes sense. And the conditioning doesnt just dissapear overnight. In case of any doubt popping up in ...

Oops accidentaly double posted it.
Can you delete the last post? Cant find the delete button.

Hi Xain ,
Good.
So in experience, what is making it happen cannot be found, yes? All that is experienced is thoughts and the arm moving.
So . .. if we suggest 'I am making the arm move' is that anything other than an idea about it? A belief / thought?
Yes exactly, there was nothing found thats ...

Hi Xain ,
Good.
So in experience, what is making it happen cannot be found, yes? All that is experienced is thoughts and the arm moving.
So . .. if we suggest 'I am making the arm move' is that anything other than an idea about it? A belief / thought?
Yes exactly, there was nothing found thats ...